my life

so my name is carson and i just came on here to vint idk if anyone will read this or not and really idc i just wanna start by saying im 15 years old i think imm ulgy and fat and how ive keep the girl of my dreams the love of my life with me this long just this tuesday it will be 4 months and idk if this is right so for my fuckups my mother and her new bf takes her away were i cant see her and her mother does the same its got to the point were i risk my life at 3 4 in the morings to steal the car and go see her and since they take her away i cut i cry before she came i had not cryes in 5 years and now im always emontiel when it comes to her and if she leaves me im telling anyone who reads this i am going to kill myself i need and want her in my life forever but the problem is im 15 and shes 12 and some people may look down upon that but it was love at first sight ill come clean the first day we meet she came home with my sister on a friday there last day of school and i saw her and im emo skinny jeams hoodies and sruff and here walks a girl ive never seen before with red hair skinny jeans and ill just say she looked like an angle that day and that bnight they wanted to sleep on a trampline and u know how 12 year old girls are scared to be outside at night sothey ask me to sleep out there i was like well sure so i went out there layed down and she scooted over and siad do u need a cuddle buddy i was like ni cuse im like most people who will read this your 12 im 15 but she just scooted in any way and put my arm over her and said cuddle with me so we layed there for 6 hours wide awake laughing jocking talking about our lives than i looked in to her beaufril blue/green eyes and i swear to you here eyes were more bright and twinkley than any star in the sky that night and i just something pulled me in i kissed her and that lead to making out than that lead to me taking her virginity right there on the trampline and now im attached to her and i never wanna loose her ever and thats all i gotta say for right now