Hi. I found this site last February by accident and have been popping in once and a while to check out posts. Today I decided to register. Why so? I’m not exactly sure. All I know is that I’ve tried two ways now to die, both have failed on numerous attempts. I’m seeing a psychologist and I’m on medication to control my anxiety problems and depression. I’m 4’2″ living with a type of dwarfism known as achondroplasia. I absolutely hate my body and luv carving it with pretty red sketches. There are voices inside my head and they aren’t all that pleasant. So Yeh, I’m pretty much very f***end up. I’m hoping on sharing a few poems or thoughts and hoping one meeting people who may be living through similar things.
So, is anyone out there?
Sincerely
Autumn Jane Sky
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I have a bad case of insomnia, been having it for years now.. and recently i became a huge fan of Peter Dinklage! (no pun intended, honestly just the truth)
I have a normal body size so unfortunately i can’t relate with you on that but there are people out there that genuinely feel attracted to people like you. Of course there will be alot that are not, but that’s life.. the media (unfortunately) portraits long tall people as being the standard for beauty.. And give little to no value for the beauty that lies within, which in all honesty is alot more attractive than the outside. People are very judgemental. Anyways i’ve been rambling about stuff you already knew.
Anyways with all these things in your head i can’t stop you from killing yourself, but i would love it if you didn’t and we talked a little =)
Looking forward to chatting with you 🙂 thank you
Hang in there Autumn Jane Sky! I suffer from Poland’s syndrome – was born with no pectorial muscles on right hand side of the body.
You write poetry, excellent! Use it to express yourself and to let all the hate and sadness out (it helped me). I hope you will get better and learn to love your body.
Thank you, and yes poetry and art happen to be quite handy these days.
Hey Autumn Jane Sky 🙂 I would love to read your poems and get to know you. I’m so sorry for what you are going through and I hope that you will stay with us 🙂 I’m here for you.
I will try my very best! Thanks and hope yo be hearing from you. Poem coming shortly. 🙂
I’m here; though not active much.
I like poetry. It’s alliteration that’s oh-so-annoying (lacks sophistication IMO). ;>_>
Hello AJS. *waves politely*
*(Hah) excluding my username!
In the cage, there is no breathing and there is no reading; there is no living. Haven’t read a book since ten years. It is not life in the cage.
I just finished master-editing my last one last by a single word. Simply but masterfully, I’d like to think. What did you think of it… You don’t have to answer. I’m still just here in my deepest lost pool. Friendo. Peace out.
maan.. i didn’t mean it to sound all depressing like that at all.
I shouldn’t had spoken, though. I just wanted to fix my poem thing, I’m leaving. =)
@Bisban: Were you talking to me? I don’t want to hijack this thread. It’d mean disrespecting the OP. Y’know? But… I’m tired. *sigh* My man is currently in Busan (South Korea) and I’ll be sleeping alone… peace.
@Autumn Jane Sky: Lovely moniker.. Sorry if I ruined your post. You can even delete my comments. *hugs* TC.
Goodnight people. Or morning/afternoon/whichever. ^-^
Hihi its ok! I really don’t mind. 🙂 will be posting poems shortly.
My next art piece was going to be about a cage, or a box thing serving as a cage, and about how day by day I’m stuck in the cage. So this is perfect. 🙂
Forgot to add a smiley face somewhere in there, btw.
=)
Feel free to email me. I’d love to see your art and read your poetry. And welcome to SP!! 🙂
Yay! I will 🙂 thank you
No problem! Looking forward to talking with you 🙂
Welcome to SP Autumn Jane Sky, I hope you find some solace here.. and I look forward to checking out your art 🙂
Nice to meet you 🙂
Well hello and welcome. I only started probing this site a month or so before you.
Autumn Jane Sky,
I can’t relate to the physical challenges you face, but I can relate to being lonely as hell, and I’m looking for people to connect with. I created a FB specifically for talking to people here, and my user name links to it. Please feel free to add me there, or get in touch via email.
(I know FB isn’t really ideal for situations where people generally want some degree of anonymity, but I’m a luddite, and FB is the social media platform I’m most familiar with, so…)
Loneliness is a curse that plagues many of us here Autumn Jane Sky, which includes me, so it’s good to welcome you. @lost, with regards to FB, looked at the page but it’s keeping anonymity that’s a problem, my name and photo and friends will be linked to it I assume.
Hey there nias 🙂 I made my friend list private, so unless you were to post or comment on a public post, no one else would see your name. For what it’s worth, I’ve already added people and I have no idea who they are. Even the people who have messaged and said they’re from SP, I don’t know their SP identities. So in a sense, there’s still anonymity. I totally understand your reluctance, though. Maybe I’ll find a better option at some point.
I’ll need to look into it further, the anonymity part, I don’t know much about FB privacy as I just use it to stay in touch with my only friend and his wife as they live on the other side of the UK to me, but FB is a good idea.