If anyone takes the time to read this I really do appreciate it.
Well I feel as if the best place to start is as a child in my childhood I was a last born child having two brothers older than I my oldest being fathers one and only care and the second my mothers I wouldn’t say I was abused by them or ignored but when I tell other people about what happened with me they seem to think I was it was just stuff like my brothers do something they don’t receive punishment and I get the world thrown upon me and such and well I ask for something and don’t get it but brother asks for something costing three times more gets it immediately but let’s skip a little more to the age of ten by now middle brother arrested twice still mothers love brother has tried to kill mother and father still protects him and well I’m still not trouble making or in such and well still not I don’t want to say loved but I hope they did but it never felt it and well continuing to around 13 I get pulled away from one of my best friends we made out she and I mother pitches fit but when her prize hit puberty she knowingly let him do more than that still anyways now to present day they try to act like I am so great just because both fathers and mothers prized possessions have failed in life brother knocked up girl girl and kid live with parents now oldest doesn’t do shit and well honestly I have maybe one friend a collection of failed relationships because of low self esteem and such things and a mild obsessive trait I developed I am not liked because as to be expected with my child hood like that I wasn’t the nicest of teens but now I have been trying to change always trying to help anyone who will take it and yet I am expendable to them I am a shy person and such I don’t know what else to say other than I am young I am 16 but life just feels worthless to me like I was a waste no one else cares if I’m there or not they can be lying in their own tears and I help them up and and then thrown into the dirt like a used rubber I don’t even know why I posted this but I love reading on this forum knowing that I’m not the only one feeling this way
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Believe me you are not the only one. I don’t have that kind of story but my friend does and mine have some same parts. I don’t know what to say to u to make you feel better but one day you will have beautiful family and good life and that will be just a past.
Thanks for just taking the time to read it honestly
I definitely know how you feel. I’ve always felt that my family holds me back, and I am looking at going to college next year as my chance to break free from them. Or I was until they informed me that if I wanted them to help pay for it I was required to come home for all holidays and summers. But after that, I’m free.