i can’t believe what my life has become, the realisation struck me maybe two or so hours ago that i have become a stranger to the people i cling to in hopes that ill be well enough for them one day. im here but im not. idk. ive realised what my life has become. and i can’t change it. i cannot cope outside these four walls I’ve been mercifully given. thats the worst part.i can’t change it. what’s the point. you ever seen into the wild? im gonna do that save up what money i have till there’s enough for me to go find a nice enough place. ill die there. i can’t handle this what’s the point im never going to get better i need to stop lying to myself and preparing those i care about for it. i DONT want them to be sad. i just want everyone I’ve ever known to forget me. like i never existed. it d be easier that way.