Day 18 and my fingers still itch for the blade. Will the urge to cut never go away? I’ve found that when I get a papercut or trip and fall scraping a part of my body brings the same kind of relief that cutting did. Mary’s boyfriend called me a whore when she brought me up in conversation. He doesn’t like me very much… I came out to my schools GSA under oath no one would say anything outside the group. When my parents find out I’m afraid of what is gunna happen to me. My family loves very conditionally. I hate it. I can’t just be me.
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The urge might take a long time to go away but you can do this. Ignore her boyfriend, he has no right making such comments. I am glad you came out to the GSA. I hope they give you the support you need. Good to see you posting 🙂
Yeah.. It just bugs me when he does because he has done it before and it is only because he saw me flirting with her (before I knew she was in a relationship) so every time he sees me I get a dirty look and whenever I’m brought up he calls me a whore, slut, fag, all this stuff even though Mary is bisexual. He makes her shut that part of her out and is keeping her in the relationship by telling her that he’s suicidal whenever things start to go south. I don’t know if he is or not but I don’t like that he is trying to control her like that. Another reason I’m called names and given dirty looks by him.I don’t know maybe it’s just me and maybe I deserve it. After all I did flirt with his girl.