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But we all know that answer. Today’s adventures included going to Skyzone. It’s a place where the walls and floors are trampolines. Needless to say, I had never before been on a trampoline. It was amusing, but while everyone who went was laughing anand joking around, I was hanging in the background like I do at every social event, making sure I was making the proper “happy face” and laughing at the correct volume. I wish I could say I had fun, but I honestly didn’t feel anything….well, I did jump into the foam pit and army crawled out because I’m too short to climb out, and it was the best part of the night, but other than that…I was utterly numb. For the last year, I’ve had two settings. Pissed, and blank. That’s all. I’d go again, beats sitting on my ass all day, but still….I feel like a machine now.
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I can relate to the two-state concept. I am either lying in a heap somewhere completely inanimate and unable to even get up to go to the bathroom or raging, smashing anything I can get me hands on. It’s a shitty existence.
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