ughh my life sucks. recently got sober from bad drug addiction..again. went to rehab 6 months, when i get out my ‘gf’ is 5 months pregnant (ya, not mine obviously].. end up relapsing…i still love this girl, she got me on the drugs in the first place….she’s had the kid now, she only calls when she needs something..i always help her out [always been the case]. now shes sober, or so she says… as am i, and she wont talk to me.. i got a new job, she came in the restaurant i manage with her baby daddy not knowing i worked there…just sent me in a tailspin. i’m not a bad looking dude…but everytime i get sober and that part of my life seems good…everything else seems to never work out for me. all my old friends are married or moved away….just try to do right but always end up alone a depressed…i just dont get the point :-/
i’ve tried to OD before…well i have. one time was driving, OD’d, went 70mph straight into brick wall…dont remember anything but was fine when paramedics woke me up with narcan…not a scratch…car and building were in a million pieces each…i dont get it. another time paramedics also woke me up..at her house….they always tell me how lucky i am…i always beg to differ
of course both times paramedics showed up..cops did too…soo…caught a charge and lost a car..but i’m ‘lucky’
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Read your story back to yourself, dude. You dodged a bullet. Count your blessings that the rest of your existence isn’t completely devoted to caring for and keeping alive another human being. Even though you’re not happy about losing her, I’m happy for you, because I’ve been in your shoes. You deserve better than her, my friend. I hope you realize that sooner than later.