Never knew, Bereavement could be so Painful!

Bereavement is never a happy thing, unless you really hate the person, even then though I won’t be happy. But one tends to accept bereavement if the person concerned is an aged or maybe an ailing one, probably not too close, just as a part of life. But if the person concerned is someone you just loved to be with and always looked up to in so many ways, somebody who had always given you bundles of joy and happiness, even while suffering himself, somebody who have touched the deepest core of your heart, then all the world just breaks apart!

It is not that I’ve not seen bereavement in family before but the one I’m talking about is something that simply has come like a rude jolt and a bolt from the blue and left a lot of lives completely shattered, including mine! Never had any idea that bereavement could be so Painful as I and many others in our family just continue to grapple to come to terms with this irreparable loss!

At such times, people should be allowed to grieve quietly, within themselves, but that is ever possible in the jungle of society! You get people who’d not just stop saying all kinds of cliché stuff, when they should be silent in the first place if they aren’t sure of what needs to be said under such circumstances. You also get people, who will not just stop to let all know how God has been so kind in saving all from some other unknown great misery! There are so many of such other people that just tire me out and particularly in this time of grief.

My own health is not okay and more so after this trauma! I have no wish to make it any better, as that decision has been taken long before. I just wonder how the wrong person has been chosen as always! The one who wants to leave stays put and the one who has given happiness to so many and was dearly needed by so many is being taken away all of a sudden! I’d not subject myself to such whims of life anymore, had enough of it for long!

But for the moment, I am unable to think anything else other than the bereavement, as well as the cherished memories I hold so dear now! I wrote a poem to express my feelings about the loss, just thought of sharing it here:

http://www.voicesnet.org/displayonepoem.aspx?poemid=274960