Sex

So as you can see you already know what i’m about to talk about, yeah i might be young but sex as a different meaning for me the more the half of the other my age younger or older, yes i’m a virgin but it’s really sad seeing sex just becoming what its becoming today as weird as it may seems sex is a gift, i see i as a gift, a gift to your husband and wife and it’s kinda the reason why i want to stay a virgin till marriage (lol if i’m not dead ) but yeah i always tough of sex as a gift a unique gift you could give to someone that you love and know that truly loves you, the only gift he or she could be experimenting that no else ever did of you, like what is one thing she can have that no one else ever had, holding you hand, i’m sure he would not be the first one, calling you his yet again not sure if he’s the first one, there’s a lot of thing he/she may call as i’m lucky to do with you but what is a one that that for sure no else as ever experience with you, that is sex, but sadly i think i might be the only one that thinks like that and many people have told me it was weird for 14 year old to feel that way about sex, we’re loosing the meaning of sex (not that sex ever had a meaning) but the thing is, sex is just sex (i don’t know how to explain this but i’ll try) like you can just go and knowing that from right to left girls boys loosing their virginity like it was nothing and most of the times on one night stands, i won’t judge you for that, but it’s just idk not right maybe i’m not sure it’s just how i feel, like your virginity is something really important and i’m so angry at people who literally steal the virginity of someone else like it’s not right, it’s so wrong on so many levels but yeah of one thing that i remember seeing somewhere “many can fuck but only a few can make love” i never really understood it and still now it had me wondering but yeah just want to let that out, and the same thing come to love now a day people are just saying “i love you” randomly without even meaning it and it’s sad, it;s really sad where are loosing the meaning of so many things now, i don’t a “i love you’ should be say if you don’t really feel it in you, question yourself are you really in love are those words meaningful or am i just saying it cause other couples say it too. Cause now a day it always like this “well this is doing that i should do it too” “well this is saying i love to is girlfriend i should do it too” “well this is doing wtf he want i will do the same” people way to often live by the lives of others (does this even make sense i hope so) and don’t often play by them self and it’s sad it’s really sad