I have often wondered why total strangers care whether or not I suicide. I have come to the conclusion that it is like pointing out that the emperor has no clothes. Every person that suicides is reminding the other 70%-90% that they should too. That it is only false hopes and fake beliefs that keep them here.
I wish I could go back (40 years!) and talk to my 16 year old self. I would tell him to end it now. I would tell him that it takes me 35 years to give up hope and by then you have “responsibilities”. So now you are stuck: no life, no happiness, waiting until your “responsibilities” are discharged or you old enough to commit the suicide you so desperately want.
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come on that is not good advie and you know it. Its good to live. No matte what trials you go through its good to go through them and to overcome them and to go forward. Trials only bring characte and wisdom that you can pass on to the youth. What ever doesnt kill you in life only makes you stronger if you have tbe right disposition and are able to learn from your mistakes.
My perception of people who are suicidal is that they often are too afraid to make big changes in their lives to make it worthwhile. Lifeis wothwhile always. But you have to have to disposition to make it worth while and be bold enough to make the changes in yourself and changes in your life to make things wothwhile. so dont go telling young pepole people to just end it. Tell them what you have learned along the way to make things bette. Me I am only alive today because I have been BOLD enough to change things that needed to be chaneged about myself and about my life to be able to move forward to make life wothwhile.
some people dont have the balls to do that and they become a victim of the bad envoronment and the bad mindset they were brought up in.
You need to search out life. Find what you are passionate about and be willing to pay the price fo what is rightfully yours. You also need intelligence in this world in orde to survve and have a good life and not enough people seek out the wisdom for that.
Life is only as good as you are willing to make it. and be willing to pay the price to make it good. A great life does not just fall out of the sky unto you lap. You have to seek it out and go fter it. unfortuitley most people dont want to do that. they want to sit around and cry because life has been unfair and dwell upon the bad things that have happpeed to them instead of pushing past it all and making a life worht living
Well I’m a few years short of you…3 to be exact…and I am glad that my “responsibilities” kept me here long enough to muddle through my morass and find MY truth. I’m sorry that you are so angry…but my hopes are real and my beliefs are real. Beyond that my Knowing is even realler. I know not a real word. 😀
I also don’t think that 70 to 90 percent of the world is as angry and hopeless as you think…although previous to my recovery…I will admit to a bit of jealousy at the funeral of suicides. ha Unfortunately suicide is at an all time high in our history. Why…since you count yourself among them…do you think this is occurring? I’m starting to think that everyone is sensing on an unconscious level what is coming to a theatre close to you…real soon. ha
I don’t mean to be flip…I really can understand the depth of pain, fear and anger that can drive you to such depths of despair…and I am sorry that you are in pain…but suicide is not the answer. Now if you are really serious about suicide…perhaps you have unmanageable pain or are terminally ill…move to Oregon for a year. Assisted suicide is legal there and in a few other states as well…you just have to be a resident for a year…and they will prescribe you a lethal dose to take at your leisure.
In truth I hope your “responsibilities” keep you here long enough to find your hope and purpose again…but then I have always been one to look for the silver lining. Hey! Perhaps it is just your thinking that is wrong…like mine was. I dunno…but I hope you find relief from your pain somehow, someday. In the meantime…I just don’t agree with your statistics. Even gloomier than mine.
I’m not exactly one to speak, but can you honestly say nothing good has happened to you in the last 40 years?
I’m 20. I already know I’m dying young, and I don’t care. Fuck this world.