No More

Silvia, you don’t have to die, one person isn’t everyone, some people can be so cruel, they seem to get pleasure out of it, they think it makes them look strong or something, they’re b*stards and should be considered as such. There are many places and organisations that are far more considerate to our struggles, it may or may not help you, but at least you’ll know someone cares, as we do on SP. Again I’m sorry that you were treated so badly, and how it’s demoralised you, it’s something you don’t deserve, no one does. The town isn’t against you, it’s the way you feel inside that make you think that, please find the help you need, as I say SP shows people can understand.

you’re going to kill yourself tomorrow? if so why? why let someone cause you to do this, and how will you, please reconsider.

I hope you’re still around, that you haven’t tried anything, I’ve been thinking about you Silvia, what you’ve been feeling. I don’t really know what to say, I could tell you about my life, that I have an embarrassing medical condition, and because of it I feel scared being around others, paranoid that people are talking about me, I can understand some of what you say.
It’s truly dreadful, even vile, what that policeman did to you; I wish you could put it behind you, please try. Going to someone for help is difficult enough for us, but when you’re treated like this, it’s so wrong, no wonder you feel as you do. Don’t let one idiot who doesn’t care make you think no one does, and don’t let this idiot push you over the edge and to suicide. There is help out there, whether anonymously by phone, or through a therapist, there are people who’ll listen.
Suicide is difficult, hence I’m still here, you can mention a method, it is a suicide forum after all, just details aren’t allowed. Please don’t try an overdose, rarely works but causes pain and carries risks, I’d hate to think of you suffering. Any method is difficult to achieve, better to keep trying to find help, it’s what SP is about.
I may sound like a silly man with all these posts but I hate to think that you want to reach out, and if you could find the right person you may feel you’d what to keep going. All I can say is please don’t kill yourself, please don’t die, even though your life is difficult, you say too much to bear, we do understand and want you to find a way through.

I don’t think this site is really for me, I want to die but don’t know if I can, but also, I hate it when other people here are about to try. I know something of what you say, I’ve been treated badly, at school, and during my life. I feel like a joke, had cruel remarks made to me, I can’t even bring myself to say what was said; I wish it was easy to put it behind us, it’s not, but it’s also not a reason to die over. I’m sorry for you, it bothers me when someone reaches out and is met with cruel remarks instead of help. I can only say I hope you try and seek help, otherwise it will be difficult to improve your life, sad to say I still struggle. If you want you can email me, it’ll appear on the comments page, else, keep using SP, even if you try and fail, we do understand how cruel the world can be.