I felt so lost one day. I finally confessed to a friend how I felt. My plans to die. Everything. He called me a coward, told me I was worthless scum. I should just kill myself and he wouldn’t care at all. I think it broke me. Now I can barely eat, sleep, or just do anything. This was the first time I tried to talk to someone about it who didn’t figure out for themselves. I’m never going to do that again. Why can’t he see how much he hurt me?
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I don’t know why someone would react in such a way, I don’t think I should express my opinion of him, I think you can imagine it would be very negative. When you cry out for help it puts you in a vulnerable position by opening up to someone you trust. I’m truly sorry for what happened to you because I generally believe that talking can help, but it has to be to the right person. My friend is someone I could never open up to because he wouldn’t get it, some people can’t, though that’s no excuse for the callous way you were treated. You must eat/sleep and try to put what happened behind you, it’s hard, but he isn’t worth you tearing yourself apart over. Again, I’m sorry that something I believe, given the right circumstances, can help, has, on this occasion, made things worse for you; here on SP we understand.
Some people are insensitive, are tactless and are lacking compassion. I know a friend who like that. He openly admits that he thinks suicide is stupid. Not nice.
That’s why they wouldn’t understand or try to understand what you’re going through, and the serious implications their words could have on other people.
Suicide is a very sensitive issue, also stigmatised a lot. It’s difficult to talk about it without being judged or stopped by the other person. You just chose the wrong person to tell. Not everyone will react in the way he did.
There are people out there who will sit by you, listen to what you have to say and support you, instead of ridiculing, judging or putting more guilt on you. You will find that a lot of us on here feel the same way you do.
If you can’t find anyone to tell your feelings to offline, we are all here on this website if you want to express yourself. You are not alone with your feelings.
Some people may never understand unless they experience it themselves.