Hi there,
I spent the past 3 or 4 months feeling suicidal, I attempted 3 times, the last time being a month ago. I had to have my heart restarted and spent days in the hospital and days after that being seen by specialists. The thing is I was so certain I wanted to die and that if I didn’t succeed somehow I would try it again. I even put in my note that I would try it again and again until I succeeded. But something has changed, I can’t explain it, I don’t have suicidal urges anymore. I don’t even think about suicide… at least not until tonight when it crept into my mind. I have been occupying myself with jobs and hobbies these past couple of weeks, so maybe that explains why I haven’t been thinking about it.
I just wanted to know whether this is normal? Do other people have complete turn arounds in their thinking regarding suicide? Am I likely to relapse and try to kill myself again? Right now I really don’t want to die, I’m making plans for the future again.
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Right now you don’t want to die. So, Right NOW is all that matters. Go with that.
Wow. You’ve been through a lot over the pa.
sounds to me like you’ve gotten brain damage from your previous attempts. Now you’re just doing what others want you to. A people pleaser. Wow. You are a shame.
Suprised an administrator hasn’t banned your ass for such negative replies.. get the fuck out
now you’re the one being negative. ;( it’s ok.. i’m miserable. doesn’t that make you so happy?
I’m going to turn your own words around and say ‘we’re all here for you’. Yeah depression sucks, I’ve had those turn arounds in thinking, in fact there was a time I was really glad I didn’t go through with my suicide plans. I don’t know whenever it’s normal, I doubt anything could be called ‘normal’ when it comes to taking your own life, but you feel good right now so let yourself be happy. Go life your life, achieve something, make new friends or do whatever it is that you want to do and the next time you start feeling depressed again tell someone before it gets out of hand or talk to us here, do something, just don’t wait until it gets so bad that you try to kill yourself again. But for now don’t worry about it.
Dude your on the right track. Yes that is how normal people feel, keeping busy and occupied with career getting goals as well as a beautiful lover haha. Idle hands let’s the devil play. I hope I can turn my life around like yours man.. cause I’ve been in a nightmare way to long.. i might even attempt one day. Sigh