I’m so jealous, why can’t I have heartbreak, friends, bittersweet relationships? I’m literally alone in this world, I guess I’m too ugly for people to have an interest in me. It’s always been about how I look, my skins too dark, my face isn’t even, I have dishevelled hair, I’m gaining weight. . . Slowly but surely, why was I born so disgusting that I’ll never have anyone, no friends, no love, I’ll never know, I’m just gods cruel joke. I’m the type of person that you see on the bus and you wonder, is that guy uglier than that homeless guy over there? (Lol) if I was an ugly girl it would be easier but instead I’m an ugly guy, the constant stares from everyone sickens me, 16 and failing grade 11, that’s me, an ugly worthless, dark-skinned monster. being have asian half black I have always loathed the black part, I wish it would disappear leaving me light and airy and just wonderful just like my mom, Yeah I guess I am racist to myself (lol) but it’s true, my sister was blessed with a lighter tone, good for her. Being in a cult, I’m constantly bombarded with how I should look, clean-cut white boys with their jelled-hair it just makes me so jealous, I’m obsessive I know but I can’t help it. Being the only ugly one in your family isn’t fun, seeing my sister going to night clubs, having tons of friends, getting hit on 24/7 and then there’s me, an ugly socially ackward 16 yr old guy addicted to anime, which makes me self-loath more because anime mcs are so fucking hot. An then there’s my crazy parents shipping me off between them, and throwing me in homeless shelters, but I guess I’ll save that for another post. Sorry for the rant and sorry if my mentioning about dark-skin offended anyone, it’s just honestly how I feel and I just hope there is at least a couple people on here that can relate to being a complete social outcast, with crazy religious nut parents and being the ugly younger sibling while your sister is fucking model-esque, with tons of relationships and love interests. I fucking want to stab this guy from my school who keeps asking me who he should choose, and it’s like WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU ASKING ME FOR LOVE ADVICE, AND WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING TO ME CANT YOU SEE IM AN UGLY FUCKER? God. I really want to die already. Even ugly people don’t want to be my friend, which is really sad.
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I have seen guys that most would consider ugly, have girls all over them. Its not always about looks but about attitude. If you hate yourself(whether its your looks or things you like, like anime) its gonna come across to others and it doesn’t attract people.
You talk out of your ass, if there is nothing attractive of your outside then people aren’t inclined to get to know your insides. There have been significant studies proving this, people with symmetrical faces get treated better it’s a fact. Just take a look at a typical high school, most of the loners are ugly. AS if that isn’t proof in itself. So don’t give me that whole attitude matters thing, you can have the best attitude in the world but in the end that girl is going to choose the stud, Esp if he’s gunning for her.
Yes, looks do matter to most people. I agree. However, so does attitude. And sometimes attitude actually wins over looks. So either way if you don’t change your attitude she won’t ever be picking you. Especially if that(your reply to me) is how you talk to people. You came on a suicide site, posting this stuff, obviously looking for comments, than talk like that to me? Might want to fix that little problem too.
Well yout have 3 solutions, find a girl as ugly as you.. get talented at something people will like you for or learn to make alot of money and buy your love.
I get where you’re coming from, being 17 and being the least-gifted e in my family and in my group of friends, it is hard. I also had a lot of issues when it came to my skin colour, especially when I was placed in a school full of snobby, light skinned kids, but I got over it, because it seemed everyone there wanted tan skin….which is what I had/have. Obviously that’s not the best way to go about things, really I shouldn’t care what others think, and what is socially accepted, but that’s just how I’m wired, and how anyone’s wired really. I used to think that I was really hideous, like beyond hideous and most of that came from comparing myself to other people. But honestly, I think that it’s not all looks, okay, if there’s a really hot guy but he is a total douche bag and he’s self-centred and rude, he’s gonna be dumped, most girls (I hope) would dump him. But if there’s a less attractive guy, but he’s one of the nicest, and the girl is not a *****, she’ll stay with him. What I’m saying is…..changing all the thoughts that you place into your mind about yourself and other people will benefit you so much. Having faith and believing that there’s someone out there for you may just shift your perspective of yourself, and make you realise that there’s really nothing wrong with you. How negatively your thinking about yourself right now is what makes you unattractive to yourself.
Sorry to say but I agree with you-life is cruel and unfair. The greatest thing that causes that is your parents getting together and having kids. If the races are closer together, then the kids usually turn out looking good. If they’re further apart and the parents aren’t attractive, then the kids don’t come out too well-based on our standards of beauty.
I’ve had the experience of being on both sides of the fence. When I was younger, fitter, had more hair, I was considered to be pretty attractive and life was good-I got to date most of the girls I wanted though my insecurities kept me from dating many more. As I got older, I became less appealing, so I know what it is to be ‘ugly’ or undesirable also.
Some people posted some good advice here. I have seen with my own eyes, hot girls dating ugly guys…apart from having the opportunity to pick them up, those ugmo dudes must have something they brought to the table, charm, good sense of humor, money, etc. So it’s something you’d probably need to look into. You might have to drop your standards too and date someone who’d want to date you. Getting a hot girl would be much more challenging unless you were rich.
Like I said, life is shit-just because I had it good for a short while, doesn’t mean my life was great. For the most part I didn’t know some girl found me attractive till later on. Anyways, bottom line, if I could choose my parents, it wouldn’t be the losers I was born to-I’d rather be born to a couple that was hot, smart and rich….ugly-stupid-poor people should be sterilized/never allowed to reproduce.