ok so this is my first post here i found it when looking up how to overdose on sleep pills and im hoping i can get help. You will have to excuse my writing sometimes im really bad at spelling and gramer nd all that. A little about me im 17 and i live in a small town ive been one very depression med my doctor can think of since in was in 8 grade now im a jounior and in the begining they work but now they dont. Here in this last 2 weeks my mood has gone down majorly… every day i think about suicide yesterday i self harmed but unfortinatly all i got is my finger nails. I have been to the out patient at mercy hospital then after two days i got sent to the inpatient but that was in december and i really dont feel like they helped me in the long run and i really dont want to go back but im litterly thinking about killing my self or putting my self in a comma only thing is i dont want to feel the disapointment if i dont succed. earlier this week i told my therapist about my collection of pills that ive had in my room since 8 grade which was aproximatly close to 200 pills or so. they got taken away my idea would be to take a couple sleep pills and when i was really tired to take the rest of the pills i had, but i dont want to hurt my parents.
my reason for wanting suicide
I have seen stories that are so much worse than mine but it doesnt help it only makes me feel stupid i have been raped by my brother and by my first boyfriend, reason one. im tired of struggling, of feeling like im drownding, reason two. im tired of fighting depression ive been self harming since grade 3… classified as depressed in grade 8 when my parents found out… im tired of trying to fight i want to yet i just want it to consume me and let go of life.
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I’m so sorry with what you’re going through. I’m 17 as well and hearing someone my age go through something like that just breaks my heart, if you want to talk to me, go to this site and it will show you my email address tinyurl.com/m9zdb2b Please don’t hesitate to talk to me
flurdelis13 ,
ok true! people will take advantage of you, you have to think for your self, people aren’t nice they are praetors! so are you! what kind of a praetor do you want to be? that you can choose, the world isn’t nothing nice, get it through your head, be careful, people will do things to you if you let them, be strong, be kind, but don’t be stupid, remember to watch out, and try to enjoy life, get away from those that are evil.