There comes a time in someones life where things hit rock bottom, then you think you are as far as you can get when you are wrong.
What I mean by this is things get worse when you think the possibilities of life getting worse are next to nothing and they can only get better, well I bring you news life can get worse then you think it could.
So today this is my suicidal note and goodbye for the world, today is the day everything is going to end for me.
I have been hospitalised three times for cutting, (in attempt to commit.)
This time it’s going to count, this time I will pass over to the spirit side.
So I know none of you care about me as you don’t know who I am, but know this one thing. that’s the reason most of us actually commit suicide… People don’t care about others when they first meet to give two shits.
So without further ado…. I bring to you the end of my life as I know it, at about 1:30 PM 2015-03-02 [Japan standard time] I’m killing myself!
Goodbye;
Ayumi Takahashi – Yokosuka Japan – 1996-2015 [female, age 19]
Quick little side note some of you may think I’m a joke or lying but who cares right? They only care when they find out I’m dead! 🙂 so I’ll give them their wish!
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i think about it every day, i feel as you do. but there is one difference between me and you. and that is the fact that i have hope. You should to maybe just for one more day, it can be better
Hey, trapx. Same here, I still have hope..
You being completely sincere? That’s pretty heavy. But I realize being a human n pain can be overwhelming and scary and frustrating and downright sucky. But I believe we need more sensitive souls like yours around. Esp while this cruel world is goin to piss in a pot.
Id rather you don’t but if you’re beyond the point of return don’t miss. Shit can get shittier in that case. I dunno how it is to be you but I can relate without judgment. ‘Cept you too young to check out. An old f?!k thing to say but give a sign of life instead of ending it all f you feel it. You matter you just can’t know it in your current state…
Hey, Ayumi. Are you still there? Are you with us? If not, I hope you’ve passed over the spirit side and you’re alright now. I totally agree with you, life can get worse. Sometimes it feels like giving up is the only option. Hurt, pain, anger, loneliness, sadness. Feels like no one cares. Do you have a family? Do they care, your mom…dad? Think about them. I know some people don’t care, but it shouldn’t stop us from caring for them. Don’t be like them. I just want you to know that you are not alone.
Yes, life can get worse, but it can get better. It can change in many different weird ways.
We might not know you but we still do care, in a way.
I’m sure if you told one of us (or to everyone, in a post) your story, you’ll find out we really do care.
People in your life might not show it properly, and i know there’s a lot of people who show it in really, really weird ways, even though they do actually care.
No one here thinks you’re a joke or lying, and personally i hope you’re okay.
Duzo, I agree with you. Maybe you haven’t met the right people yet..I really hope you’re still here. Your story caught our attention, we took the time to write these messages, because we care. If your goal is achieved, well, I hope you’re feeling much better now.
I agree with the others. No way is this seen as a joke or scam and I too hope that you are OK.
You’re only 19, I know that rock bottom has no age barrier, as does suicide, but at 19, you will continue to spiral and sink unless you decide that you’re low enough or you seek help.
I’ve hit rock bottom a few times. I’ve contemplated and attempted suicide on many occasions. I’m glad I’m still here. I lost everything, but I got up and started again and replaced what I lost with something better.
Its hard to lose friends and at 19 its really hard being alone or feeling lonely.
I hope you found a reason to keep going. I’d like to have a more private chat if you’d like. There’s a lot I’m not going to post public, but feel you may benefit from what I have learnt after a very confusing and difficult time throughout my late teens, 17-20.
Hope you’re still with us and take me up on my offer.
Dear Ayumi, I totally respect your decision (I’ve been there of course), but I have to tell you that if anything matters for you to give it some extra time is to tell your story, let the people know, give hope, inspire others. That’s what I’m trying to do. If you’re still with us I’d be more than welcome (and happy) to hear your story (sproject.blog.com). If not, be happy wherever you are, I’m sure you deserve it 🙂