Things like these are always hard to type aren’t they? Or maybe I’m just awkward, heh.
My name is Daniel, but I tend to go by Danny. I’m 17 years old about to turn 18 in May but I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t want to keep living. Why? That’ s a hard question to answer and I don’t want to bore you with stories but I’ve become really tired. Many think that 17 years isn’t long at all but in my eyes it’s like a century, not that I’m calling people older than me ridiculously old but that’s just how I feel , ya know?
I’ve been contiplating suicide for the past 6 years though I really never had the courage to go through with it but I think I’ve found it now. I’ve researched different methods and have come to a conclusion, which I will not share.
I feel like I will let many people down by doing this but at this moment I’m in a state of apathy.
-Danny
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I understand where you’re coming from when you say you’re tired. I really really hope that your situation, whatever it may be, gets a bit better.
Thank you, I also hope that you find a solution to your problems .
My birthday’s in May as well, but you’re a bit younger than me…
I get you. I am also 17 and have been suicidal from the age of 11. And I am just going to say that you need to stay strong. No matter what happends either talk to someone about it or just try to forget about it. I’ve tried commiting suicide 4 times.
And to be honest I am tired too, I want to kill myself every day. I might have friends but they have enough of problems without even dealing with me. My boyfriend barely talks to me anymore.
My parents don’t give a shit about me and my siblings have enough of problems.
I have tried to kill myself last night but I am still alive.
I come here and see people that had worse problems than me and are still alive.
This probably didn’t helped you but even if it doesn’t get better, even if you are completly crushed don’t show it. Keep the picture of perfect you and don’t let go of it. At one point you will start living it.
And I am still not sure is it the right thing to do
Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with me, but the thing is for the past six years I’ve not “shown” how dead I already am. I’ve lived my life painfuly smiling and doing my best for the sake of others and I have to say It’s all very tiring .
danny, you live in canada? I feel for you man. You have so much strength left inside of you though. I feel it through the text. I feel the hope. I feel the power untapped within you.
I’m actually living in the states at the moment.
And thank you…