31 make lots of money, try to be a good person yet it seems like I have a tendency to ruin every relationship now this time it was my marriage divorce is almost final. No one I meet ever understands what it’s like to feel this way I’m just fucking unhappy all the time unless I drink so much I “feel” fine until it wears off.
Therapy , psychs, meds none of it changes anything I want out…….
But then take into consideration my family how will they feel? Even my soon to be ex wife…….
Am I selfish for giving up? My whole life I’ve tried to be selfless is it fair that for once after 31 years it’s about me this time?
Tried pills when I was younger, slit my wrists a few times somehow I was always found by family members or friends that said they knew later on after talking to me earlier to check on me.
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It’s selfish from both sides. I have made peace with that part. My actions will hurt the few people that care about me, and I regret that. But, at the same time, what about my suffering?
When you reach this point in your life, where you have lost your will to live, what else can you do? Continue to suffer through an unbearable situation that will never improve, just so your loved ones don’t have to mourn you? Or just end it all?
I choose the latter. I’m just done. Done.
Honestly, I’m happy to hear someone on this website makes decent money.