I cant sleep. I feel more alive in my dreams then i do in real life. When i wake up i sit and cry before putting on a fake smile and going to school. Im a pretty shy kid, i guess you could call me a nerd. got good grades but there not the best and i spend most of my time reading blocking out the real world. Anyways, back to the sleeping problem. I fall asleep around 12 at night and the problem is i cant stay asleep. i dream, wake up and cry, and go back to sleep. most of my nights are like this. i need some pills or something so i can rest,i just dont care anymore.
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Probably the same reason we’re all awake……
So sorry about your sleep troubles. Just, no matter how hard it gets, don’t get any pills for sleep because most of them help you so much at first, but then turn on you and block sleep and make a rebound insomnia 10x worse than the original sleep problem you had. I had sleep issues (mostly falling asleep late), and while some meds (lorazepam, which is a potent benzo) helped with sleep, it’s keeping me from sleeping, so I am lucky if I average 3-4 hours with the med. Sometimes I get 1 hour of sleep. Sometime not at all. I get a lot of suicidal thoughts because of the lack of sleep.
If I could go to my younger self and tell him what to do, I’d tell him not to take any benzos, ambien or even benadryl. They are false friends and don’t give you good sleep.
One thing that may help the most is melatonin supplement (try the lowest dose, like 1mg), but don’t use for more than 3-4 weeks. It’s a natural hormone made by the body. Also, some meditation and exercise may help with sleep.
Shyness is ok. It is uncomfortable, but ok. You may be a “sensor” type personality. Read a book called “Mastering your moods”. Judith Orloff also has a fantastic book about emotional freedom. Another good one is Reinventing Your Life: The Breakthrough Program to End Negative Behavior and Feel Great Again.
Get some CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) from a psychologist. Psychologists are good as you just talk to them. Avoid psychiatrists like plague, cause they’ll just put you on a bunch of meds and make your life much, much worse. Also, beware of anti depressants because they can mess with your sleep, too.
There’s plenty of time for you to fix your sleep and your life. I was doing well in my 20’s and 30’s, but lost my way with anti-anxiety meds and generally messed up my life by being overambitious and pushing through despite my fears. It’s important to conquer fears, but do it in a way that doesn’t make your anxiety bad, like I did. Slowly increasing your comfort zone is the best.
Sorry for the long post, and good luck to you!!!