I’am too yong to talk about my experience in life i’am only 17 but i know a lot , i know that life is so hard cause i’am suffering . Every day i hate my life more cause i live a very miserable one . Sometimes i think that everyone hates me even my parents they allways hit me , my mother told me that she wish that i was dead or never born she dont talk to me well she do but just to tell me about the bad things that my father did . They dont sleep in the same room they dont talk to each other at all . Teens in my age have friends go out have fun but i’am in my room crying or sitting in the darkness . I’am so weak to kill myself i just cant do that , honestly i’am a smoker i think its an easy way to a slow and unpainful suicide .
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Hey @girl from the hell. Sadly there is no time in life too young or too old for bad experiences, but that also means your never too young or too old for good experiences either. I can see life hasnt been easy for you so far, and unfortuantly theres no way to purge those bad experiences from your life. but what you can do is decide to not let your life be full of so much darkness. we are shaped by events in our lifes, you can choose how those events shape you, you can be stronger because of what you went through or you can let it break you. but letting it break you means letting everyone whos ever hurt you win, i know for me, that thought would cause me more pain than anything, to let everyone whose ever hurt me get the satisfaction of beating me. You can make a change in your life, you are old enough to to get out of the toxic environment you are in. if you get away from the negative influences in your life you may well start to enjoy life, thats the greatest payback you can get, make something of yourself and enjoy life
I agree 100% with Procel
You may not be able to change who your parents are or what they’ve done – but you CAN change where you go from here – strive to become everything your parents are NOT. Good, kind, caring, compassionate, gentle, healthy and successful! Plan your escape and live for you! One step, one day at a time – be ambitious but realistic
echo dawg
@Procel you told me to stand against the people who hurts me but the problem is that those are my parents @Dawg i’am that perfect girl in a lot of people eyes but not my parents
and thank u both for your support it means a lot for me
in theory the fact they are your parents shouldnt matter, they are a negative influence and should be treated as such. i know reality is always more complicated than theory but you have to ask yourself a few questions.
if they wernt your parents how would you act?
what makes them deserving of the title of parent?
and is that enough to let them destroy you and bring you to depression?
I know parents have a special spot in our lifes and no matter what they do they are our parents but you dont really owe them anything?
I know they are family and we are programed to love them for that reason but is it worth your life to stay in such a toxic environment?
you’re welcome … yes, generally you should stand against people who hurt you … but sometimes it’s just not possible or realistic … so you need to develop a plan to circumvent those types of people and either get them out of your life or get as far away from them as possible and always keep distance.
Just remember that a year or two may seem like an eternity but in the grand scheme of things it’s really a blink of an eye … do your best to plan an prepare your escape from these mean parents of yours … it’s important to do your best (as possible) in school to open up future opportunities like college, scholarships and/or jobs … all things that are helpful to facilitate you getting away and out on your own. Bite your tongue and try not to pick fights or rebel since that will only make your remaining time living with your parents more difficult – it’s about survival and escape – not necessarily about “proving” who is right or good. Notice how the prisoners in New York escaped – they did so by gaining trust and exhibiting good/trustworthy behavior – at least outwardly – this allowed them to patiently plot and plan and ultimately make good their escape … luckily for you, once you get out, there won’t be a manhunt 😛
Focus on what you CAN do … not on what you’re prohibited from doing … all the best
stalag dawg
Hello girl
I am totally on your side and I even feel the pain myself and also the anger at them.
The kind of parents that one gets is obviously a lottery and I am certifying in life that most people get odious parents and this is because people should not be allowed to marry gratiously because depending on how they are, they cause misery to their children.
Of course, my parents were like that too and I still keep the resent towards them after 30 years.
Luckily you are now 17, so you are on your way to earn your independence little by little, either move to college or so. Whatever, you must stick to your future and to what you want to become and do and in no way be undermined by them. It is the nature of girls that they endure the pain and transform it into depression. We, males, react by way of agression and violence, thus we dont get depressions that often, but we get into other kinds of trouble because of this.
So, this experience that you are going through now is not useless, on the contrary, it is very important because it is teaching you a lot about human nature, and what you want to do and what you don’t want to become or have in the future.
So, by all means, look ahead, stick firmly to your education, no matter how many hurdles you encounter to achieve it. Get your education, your job, your independence and create your own family.
God bless you and you will do well.
@procel yeah i should’nt stay in this toxic environment even if there is my parents there but i’am unable to do anything @Dawg i’am doing my best at school i’am agree with u it’s my only way @Oracle i feel so bad for u too cause u have parents like mine they allways put me down when i talk about my future and never give me a little of hope but thank you all for your advices it really makes me feel glad cause there is some people who cares
@girl from the hell, for what its worth dawg seems to have the best solution, of waiting it out until you can get away properly, if thats the case the only thing to do is to develop healthy coping methods to deal with the emotional issues that arrise from the situation
@Procel yes i’am trying thank you