General So much by FeelingFunny 6/14/2015 written by FeelingFunny 6/14/2015 So I got arrested yesterday for heroin possession and trespassing, I have an abscessed tooth causing untold amounts of pain, I’m close to losing my job, and might have to go to prison in 12 days. Suicide has never seemed like a better option. amountsbetterpainSo 6 comments 0 Email Related posts “Im too broken for friends….” 9/28/2021 9/28/2021 I can’t live and I can’t die. What... 9/27/2021 The words out your mouth you’re the first... 9/27/2021 9/27/2021 careless 9/27/2021 “Everyone feels helpless with me, its ok” 9/27/2021 Fragile Nothingness 9/27/2021 :( 9/27/2021 It hurts, it’s awful, and I can’t look... 9/26/2021 6 comments RealTalk30 6/14/2015 - 10:35 am I’m sorry that things have gotten this bad for you. I’ve always thought that if I ever got to that position I’d kill myself too.. but my sense of self preservation keeps me from getting too deep into drugs and violence. I still feel like there is hope and i can save myself from this. Although in my mind I’ve never thought I was actually a person worth saving. It’s all my doing.. just like I’m sure you feel the same. You have to take what you can get and give yourself any possible reason to survive. Life isn’t over and we all get a second chance to turn it around. I hope this can be your chance. Good luck Log in to Reply FeelingFunny 6/14/2015 - 10:58 am Thnx man. But I can’t deal with this shit, it’s too much. And as much as it is my fault I still feel I am just a product of my environment. Growing up poor and mentally unstable, an absent alcoholic addict for a father, abandoned by family at young age, working shitty jobs, living in drug and crime ridden places, horrible relationships, medical problems, it all takes it’s toll over the course of your life. All I want to do now shoot up a fat dose and never wake up again. Log in to Reply suicidesojourn 6/14/2015 - 6:33 pm I want to film my suicide as proof- a camera does not automatically prove the world is real, its full of terror and destitution. And our governments at the highest places of power are evil and not brought to trial, investigated and locked up. crime is legal. Log in to Reply RealTalk30 6/14/2015 - 6:36 pm I hope you dont film your suicide. That’s an evil legacy to leave behind. Youd be no better than the government lol Log in to Reply southbaycutty 6/14/2015 - 8:19 pm Even if you do end up going in for a little stretch, you still have the chance to turn your life around. I have plenty of friends that did 10yrs+, got out and started families and bought houses. You’ll be amazed at how much you can do for yourself if you find the determination. Log in to Reply totallyagree 6/15/2015 - 3:04 am I get that, sometimes it seems easier, but then it’s like f that shit. I’ll conquer this like I conquer everything else. It’s not easy and it’s a daily battle. But war is brutal and this world is always at war, we’re just casualties. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.