Why do people say that? Time heals all wounds… classic quote that means shit. Dad, you died 2 years ago, and today is ‘your’ day .. I can’t celebrate it anymore, and I miss you so much. But 2 years.. no relief. That knife that twists in my stomach when I think about how much I wish we could trade places – it still hurts with the same intensity as the day you passed. I can’t stop hurting inside, I can’t stop wishing it was me instead of you – I don’t understand WHY God took you .. you are a thousand times more important, loved and significant than I am or will ever be; The crying never completely goes away. When I wear that smile I’m still dying on the inside. Maybe that’s why – God only takes the good ones… that would explain a lot. I want to join you – to end the torture that every day brings anew – but I feel like if I go through with it, I won’t be in the same place you are.
But – if heaven and hell are real – am i not in hell already?
I don’t want to be here anymore
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A lot of things DO heal in time. But maybe this situation, the loss of your Dad needs more time to heal. Also somethings such as this loss you have… may never fully heal, but you can learn to cope with it over time and it will get easier.
I am sorry to hear of your loss, My heart goes out to you on Fathers day. I know it must hurt a lot.
Try not to blame yourself or anybody else for that matter. Loses come and its just a fact of life we have to learn to adjust too.
take care.
thanks for posting
yeah time does not heal all wounds… i hate that saying
i am sorry that your father is gone
i am sorry that you are in this state…