I’ve been in severe neuropathic pain for over a year and a half now and I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve tried killing myself by injecting air into my central line(permanent iv leading to my heart) but I just coughed all 100ccs right back out…then today I was planning on slitting my carotid artery with a large knife while I was cutting a watermelon(I have seizures so I was hoping maybe it would seem like an accident) but I got really woozy and shakey and backed out because I was worried that I’d cut the wrong thing and survive. I’d just go with ordering ******** but I don’t know how to find a reliable source, and I’d like for my friends and family to think it’s an accident… I just feel so utterly defeated
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I know the feeling completely. As the days turns into weeks and then years, it gets harder and harder with that kind of pain. I’m in the same boat as you are. I can’t seem to do anything right on my left. My relationships with people are going down the drain and I don’t have the heart to change it. But you know what a tho? Feeling like you’re a chicken shit for backing out, makes me think that you’re a lot stronger than this. I have days of not wanting to wake up anymore but I’ll end up having this dream where my lfe is not as bad as I make it out to be. Just hang in there hun. There will be a rainbow at the end of your storm. Just please don’t give up and go down without a fight. Of anything, even tho we don’t know each other, just know this: I’m here for you. Be strong and keeping on fighting!
i have severe pain my whole body is burning its excritiating and it gets worse each day i have two bottle ******** but i need someone to injcet me as i cant inject myself thats my issue i have the stuff but taste makes u be sick i cant keep it down as it is so i feel lost desperate