A burden to the people I love

I feel like I’m a burden to everyone in my life. It seems like I can’t do anything right. I’m a fuck up. No matter how hard I try, I fuck things up. I have a terrible relationship with my family, and they’ve told me multiple times that they don’t love me or even like me. I try, i try to be a better person. But my family still calls me selfish, spolied, bitchy . I feel constant guilt, I’ve felt like this since I was a little girl . I can’t talk to anyone about it because i feel as if I’m being annoying, being a burden. I have no one to talk to. I’m being thrown around in the vicious tornado of depression and it’s picking me apart. I feel unloved , unwanted, lonely, useless, ugly, unintelligent . I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m tired of causing everybody pain when I try my hardest to be a good person.