drowning in your flesh
rotting in a cage
constant fear of mirrors
nausea when you look in one
dreaming about slicing off bad body parts and sewing on good ones
inability to look at a cis-person
feeling like a turd when your mom tells you to suck it up and quit begging for attention
envisioning yourself as a good-looking ideal-bodied person and feeling like the shit…but then the fantasy collapses and you’re back to square one with your awkward wrong body
It’s pretty unbearable. I can’t even get hormones for probably several years since my parents aren’t too supportive. I have an appointment with a gender therapist in two months, and that’s only because my doctor recommended it for my own health.
My body is what’s causing the problems, why the hell can’t I just escape it? Huh? My consciousness is male and my body is alien
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I kinda know how you feel.
I am a DFAB genderfluid person, who most days feels incredibly male. So the whole dysphoria thing still hits really hard you know?