Current thoughts 7/16/15

I’m actually out on vacation as I type this. The last time I was on vacation was around this time a year ago. I was on vacation then because I needed to get away from everything as my ex dumped me and I didn’t handle it well at all. We were together for over 5 years and even to this day it still hurts. It’s been over a year since she left and I was crying over her yesterday. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder months before the break up so to blame her for that would be wrong. I found out last October that she is with someone else. That someone was a guy that openly had a thing for her while we were together. She told me she found the guy annoying, ugly and repulsive while we were together but apparently she changed her mind about him. I don’t want to accuse her of cheating because I have no idea if something happened, but I really hope that isn’t the case. I was hoping I’d be better off than I am about all this by now, but I guess it could always be worse. Thanks for reading this, it feels good to let this kind of stuff out.