I hate myself

I went though self hatred all my life too. Mostly because of how poorly I was treated. I also had some good friends and a person who loves me. It came a time in my life where I had so much self hatred and hatred towards the ones that hurt me that I just kind of got burnt out on it. To keep my sanity I had to try and let the past go. I don’t hate nor love myself. I somewhat disassociated myself from those feelings. I’m more focused on how I hate how I’m feeling and how I want it all just to end. I hate life and how it works.

I can promise you that you don’t diserve to be hated! You diserve love. Humans, in most part, are peeditorial species and will knock down people they perceive as weak though the process of natural selection. It’s a horrible reality but it’s true and encoded in our animal DNA. THIS is a major reason why I opted out of life and society. I don’t wanna play this stupid evolutionary game and deal with people who’s constantly trying to outdo one another to be “king of the jungle” and putting up fronts. It’s all bullshit.