What do you do when you can’t feel anything?
Just emptiness, numbness… I can’t do anything. I’m suicidal. Ive tried so many times. I tried to get better. I stopped taking antidepressants for 2 months now. I didn’t want to depend on it anymore.
There’s this emptiness inside of me that I can’t shake, I’ve been suicidal since I was 17. People kept telling me that it would get better, but things got progressively worse as I aged. I’m going to be 21 soon and I have no job, enough money to buy a gun and a family that will be heartbroken if I die. I’ve wanted to die for so long now, but the sadness my family would feel makes my heart weigh heavily.
I feel a constant stream of hate, shame and dispair whenever I remember my past. I’ve lived a long life of awkward situations and disappointment. […]
I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m so so lost. I bounce between feeling numb and incredibly sad. But when I’m around people, which is only when I’m at work, I can act so happy and chipper that sometimes I wonder if I’m actually not depressed at all.
But then I go home and I’m alone again and I can’t sleep and I really really want to kill myself. And I have these weird dreams that remind me that nothing is okay. I want to kill myself. I desperately need to. I don’t know what’s beyond life but I know I shouldn’t be here.
Im so sad […]
I am here to tell you one thing. Death isn’t my solution, it is my hideaway spot. The place I dream about when things get bad, the place I think about when I want to end things, but cant bring myself to do it. I find it comforting to dream about what could be if I died, but then it begins to scare me, it begins to make me feel alone, and sometimes I don’t know what to do. How to handle life, how to keep going. Im so tired of struggling, so tired of living off of nothing, having to rely on others, I […]
Hey, I’m a girl, to be perfectly honest I’ve tried everything on getting better at doing life and all I end up is putting myself into hospital and hurting people around me. Yes I want to die. And yes I wil. One day. I’ve ended up here seeking help, so who knows I wanna find someone to relate to. I can’t be the only one wanting to loose my breath in the dense capacity of the ocean or breath in the sickening toxins of carbon monoxide on a daily basis? 🙁
I’m brand new to this site, but I figured someone would be able to give me some advice. I don’t know what to do. I feel helpless and hopeless to this depression, this feeling. I’ve had depression for years, it feels like most of my life. It gets better, it gets worse. But recently my grandfather passed away, and I’m not coping well with it. It’s been hard to sleep or interact. I’ve been irritable and volatile, and I feel like a lot of the people in my life are getting sick of my mood swings. I don’t feel like I have anyone, but even […]
A new development has arisen, not only do I feel like the world has abandoned me but it seems my few friends I have left have too. None have spoken to me since I was kicked out of school, the sister I spoke of previously was recently kicked out because she didn’t want to do the work involved for year 12. The school however gave her more help then they ever offered me, I was shoved to the side and told to leave however they gave her 2 months to catch up, they gave her a tutor and said she only had to do 2 […]
I hate myself. I realized after all this time people must hate me for a reason. Probably the same reasons I hate myself. They don’t say the things they do for a reason. I used to think they r just being mean. R something but now I don’t blame them for saying the things they do. I just want to stop feeling like this, but this is what I deserve. Feel the same? Wanna talk to me? Idk wanna contact me for some reason? Kik-julesmccaffrey1769
I’ve been at my real dads since June 24 and I’m leaving August 3.
My mom has been verbally and mentally abusive for all of my life. She threatens to physically abuse me all the time. She led me to believe that my dad never cared about me and that he cheated on her with my stepmom.
That wasn’t the case nor did my dad ever do that. It’s got worse recently which is why I’m up here with my dad. I would call my stepmom everyday crying. My dad found out what she recently has done ( she was making others and friends believe I’m psychotic […]
I hate my life so much, I’m 14 and I’m gonna turn 15 next week. I’m in foster care and I’m just an absolute waste of space! I can’t do anything right, I’m failing at nearly all my subjects, I keep making my foster carer’s (I’ve been with them for 8 years) upset with me. They call me a liar and it pisses me off so much . I’m fat and ugly and stupid. I feel stupid for writing this I just want to end my life! Right now. I have pills next to me as I type and I really want to take them […]
My dad commited suicide.
My dad is gone.