its to much

Hey, I can relate to feeling “terrible” and “horrible” inside…and guilt about being a bad friend because I’ve worked so hard to isolate myself and stop caring about anyone except for myself. Guilt and regret over the past eats me up inside and it is never satisfied!
I do think everyone has a purpose for being here. I don’t associate with a particular religion but I do pray quite a lot and right now it’s what keeps me going. Have you tried thinking of the possible benefits of the situation you’re in right now? I know how much it sucks and you feel like you just want to give up. You didn’t give much detail about your situation, but maybe you could learn something about yourself from what you’re going through.