I’ve attempted suicide 6 times in the last year. The pills are sitting next to me for tonight.
I became suicidal many years ago. I can’t remember quite when. I never acted until this year though.
I started self harming after my fourth attempt. I’m 57 days clean. The blade sits next to me as well, ready to be used.
My family hates me and I have no friends. There is no point for me living anymore. I don’t see why I hold on.
I recently stopped taking my medication. I just flush it down the toilet every morning. The medication makes me feel numb anyway.
I’m so broken I don’t know what to do.
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Sorry your suffering so much. I’m currently planning my own death but I also educated myself in suicidology. It’s very hard to kill yourself and the chances of failing is high. I’m not going to tell you my method of choice, and it’s gonna be a sure fire way.
According to statistics, overdosing on pills is 6% successful. For comparison, cutting yourself is also 6% successful. For reference, if you cut yourself and overdose on medication, you have a 12% chance of succeeding, and an 88% chance of winding up disappointed in the hospital, then off to the psyche ward you go.
Do your research, and plan, plan, plan!
I feel like either outcome, the psych ward or death, wouldn’t be that bad. I would prefer death, but at least in the psych ward, you’re free from the outside world. At least, in my experience.
In the psych ward, you aren’t free. You are monitored, 24/7. I would know. There is no freedom. Have you ever been there? It sucks. A lot. So don’t try to kill yourself. Please. Stay alive.
Wndoz8er,as u know mate,I have failed to hang myself twice.Please educate me,is there any other easy way to go? I know you r not supposed to discuss such things in details here but at least give me a hint.I really need your help,I can’t ask other people for help because they don’t no much yet but you windoz8er are a veteran and an experienced man who knows depression just too well.I need your help so badly.My time is up,just tell me how m I going to make it a bit easy for me.I need to hang myself.And one thing,there is this fellow selling “NEMBU TAL” on this site.I think it is a scam,what do u think? How can I acquire this drug without any problems? Sorry to keep the post so long,I just wanted some help that’s all,take care.
Hey man they try to sell drugs on this site quite often. I would say its all a scam. Chances are it all gets lost in the mail and resend more money. Then he sends you some stuff with just salt and sleeping pills in it. Then says it wasn’t enough to kill you and you send more money. I hear you can go to Mexico and get it from the vets not sure if they are catching on to foreigners doing that now but ild say so. Sorry to stomp ya buzz but you could also try out. I know in my country its illegal to import the stuff and its a jail term
If traced it could also mean assisted suicide if they find out who sent it. I’m sure that’s jail time and enough to deture most criminals from sending the real stuff
There’s nothing that I can say to make things different or better. I feel for you…. I really do… I wish you peace in both mind, body, and spirit.
the best and only way nearly 100 % not to fail is by a shot to ur temple or mouth . I feel the same way . no idea what to do
I wish I could help you. I really do. I wish I could take your pain away because I’m sure you don’t deserve it. If you do decide to go, I wish you the best of luck in the afterlife.. Although I’m hoping you don’t go because I hate seeing people kill themselves.
Please don’t kill yourself. I’m here for you if you need to talk. You are stronger than those pills. You are stronger than those blades. Do you have kik? You can kik me if you need to. I’m right here for you. DO NOT TAKE THOSE PILLS. WHATEVER YOU DO. NO PILLS. NO CUTS. I AM HERE, TALK TO ME INSTEAD OF CUTTING OR OVERDOSING.