Hey, all. Sincerely hope you’re doing well. Er — as well as can be, given that we’re all in a suicide forum.
I guess I’ll get right to the point: One of my major fears is poverty. I live in a Third World country, and I see it every day. The lack of healthcare, the people living in the streets, the laborers breaking their backs every day and making f*ck-all. Shamefully, I’m more concerned about not falling in with them than actually helping; there’s just too damn many people in need. Sigh, yet another reason to just catch the bus, if only I weren’t so cowardly. Anyway, I’m positively pissing myself because it seems like poverty is imminent for me. I have health issues going on, not to mention mental and emotional stuff. My parents are old and getting older, and I’ll have to support them or they’ll die suffering and possibly cursing me.
Can you still call it mental illness if you’re dealing with legitimate problems that result from a sick society? And what are the ways of coping with such legitimate problems, short of moving to a Tibetan mountaintop and becoming a Buddhist monk? Positive thinking doesn’t quite cut it for me, because some people really DO fall into poverty, and some DO suffer, and some stories DON’T have happy endings. I mean, aside from suicide, obviously. Seriously, I don’t think I’m that brave. If you open the blinders and face the worst possible scenario, is there anything to help the suffering? Or do people keep on hiding behind hope?
Thank you so much for reading.
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hey ************ lol thats a weird username… never mind if thats the name you want then fine..
yeah I am dealing with poverty too.. my parents earn about 20k per year.. and I live in a third world country too. its called bangladesh.. a shithole… where do you live?
oh sorry I read ************ instead of motherchucker.. forgive me..
Ohh! So quick to respond! I’m from the Philippines. The rich-poor gap here is ridiculous, and you see shopping malls sprouting amid slums. It’s just insane.
Is this primarily why you’re depressed? The poverty, I mean?
yeah.. money is the most important thing currently… if I don’t have money I am not regarded as a human being, I am just an animal who will starve to death one day..
and yeah, the gap is quite ridiculous where I live too.. I always have to take the bus while rich people have bmws…
I’m sorry about that. Even in a change of clothes I notice that people treat me differently. Just by dressing shabbily, I can magically get people to bump into me, abandon all etiquette, and not get help at shops. Why are people so… well, disgusting??
Is the bus crowded where you live? The train here packs us like sardines. We have, like, literally 8 train cars for thousands of people to use every day, and it’s madness.
I want to learn to cope with it, if I am to live in poverty forever. Although I guess a suicide forum out of all places is the wrong place to ask. People are more understanding here, though.
well we are animals.. mother nature can be disgusting.. we can be disgusting.. that’s how we have evolved.
buses are obviously crowded.. I have to fight to just find a place to stand on..
and there is way to cope with it. either you just become rich or fool yourself into thinking “money isn’t everything” and “money can’t buy happiness” and pretend to be happy although even your basic needs are not being fulfilled.. sorry to be so harsh but that’s the reality..
Firstly, money cannot buy you happiness. If your current trouble is economic struggle, you must consider yourself lucky. It would be solved once you work your way through to make some money. The reason is materialistic, which could easily alter. Look at people like me and many others. If only money could change my suicidal feelings, I’d give up all to live as poor. I hope you find a way to be richer, not just because that would solve your problems but make you realize that being rich isn’t exactly you’re expecting it to be. P.S I’m from a third world country too.
lol i want a ps4 and some ps4 games.. if my dad gave me enough money to buy that then i could play ps4 games.. and that would make me really happy..
see? happiness can be bought with money..
Yeah @Unluckymale13, your explanation is one of a kind. Its good for you if you could buy happiness with money. There is a hope that you’ll be better when rich. Unfortunately, maximum depression is noted to be found in the west which is relatively rich. Guess they just couldn’t buy one. I’ve seen people with pretty much nothing live struggling yet happy lives whereas I am unhappy for chasing too much.
Well you don’t have to answer if you don’t want but I have a little curiosity about you .Every time I log in, I see you. What has brought you so much pain? If sharing helps..
what makes you think that all poor people can get diagnosed? there are plenty of poor people with depression.. i am one of them.. and the the ps4 thing was just an example.. i am not saying just a ps4 will make everyone happy.. i don’t know why rich people are sad or depressed.. i am not rich so I cant understand. i am poor and i have some needs I want fulfilled.. and I know that it will make me happier.
i am here most of the time because i have nothing better to do.. the only people i can talk to are here… why are you curious about me? there are people like wndozh8er, tristeza, hjerteblomst who spend a lot of time here than me.. are you saying i should leave?
*a lot more not a lot of
@catty and if you are that curious about me then click my name.. all my posts are there(except the previous one.. they were just childish so I trashed them)
No no. Plz don’t get such wrong ideas. You don’t have to leave as long as you don’t want to. I have seen other names as well. I was curious about you because I thought of you as a neighbor. I’m from a SAARC country too. I thought I could connect with your problems. Your reply is rather rude so I assume I must have pissed you off. I apologize and I’ll leave you alone. Besides I’m not that rich to be called rich. I’m neither poor. However I have seen both sides and I didn’t find riches as fascinating as I had expected. That was all I meant. I hope it gets better for you.
@cattty I am really sorry if I sounded rude.. my english isnt very good.. you understand..
I always try to be polite..
I checked them already. Sorry but looking at what you write, I wouldn’t imagine you being autistic. In our part of the world, you wouldn’t even be called short. I thought personal conversation would make you feel better but it’s ok.
haha.. me not being called short.. thats a good one.. most of my peers at high school always used to call me a midget.. sometimes a baby.. they are all taller than 5’10” by now..
and the thing about autism.. its just a guess.. I have all of the symptoms that autistic people have.. I dont know how to go to a doctor and get diagnosed.. I used to think that I have social anxiety but my looking at my problems I can guess its autism
Well, I’m not really aiming to become rich. Just with enough stuff not to suffer from having no access to morphine in case I get a terminal illness, having no place to sleep, living paycheck to paycheck and having nightmares about job cuts, etc. And with the current economic situation, a lot of people will get screwed over and be found lacking. No siree, living in poverty is no joke, and making money is not that easy, I don’t think. But I am sorry your suffering is from other sources.
@motherchucker yeah making money is hard but if you are smart and work hard enough then money will fly towards you..
I’m in a similar situation to yourself (the economic situation of this country is ridiculous). People get crapped on everyday while government gets salaries even 30x times more than the minimum wage (and that’s without considering the bonuses they get). I see people go to work every single day just to break their backs for little money, to fall in debt, and to keep perpetuating that downward spiral. I work sporadically because of my many health issues (while studying something knew that is more endurable with my condition), and yup, it just isn’t enough.
What i’m getting at with that is that it’s perfectly normal to be afraid of falling into poverty and getting depressed (not just sad) because of it, in the long run. Add to it the stupid expectations set by society and you have constant pressure from everywhere. How could you not live in constant stress by knowing all of that? my guess is that the rare ones are the ones that do not live stressed out, not the other way around.
In the end all we can do about it is try our best (within our possibilities, and if we want to) and hope things will work out. I mean, what else could we do with things the way they are? maybe with effort and a little bit of luck that could be done, but we’ll only know in the long run. Good luck with that.
according to my dad, although this was in the 80s i think, in your country, the Philippines, there was this woman and her baby, who were starving, she had no money and her clothes were almost worn out, so she was pretty much naked… Aaaand everyone just walked past her, nobody helped her. But my dad decided to help her, he went up to some shop, the woman there got her some clothes, and she had a meal at a restaurant. Don’t know what happened after this, nor does he….
don’t know if the same would have happened (help) if it was a male. Anyway, i couldn’t walk past such people and do nothing. People are sick!!!