honestly i’m just so fucking tired of everything.
i’ve gone past the stage of feeling depressed, to the feeling empty and numb inside. everyday, i’m walking around like a zombie, my mind blank and not really listening to anything, yet on the outer side, i seem to be laughing and socialising. and it wows me just how much a smile can hide. haha.
what future do i have in life? everyday, it’s just the same thing over and over again, if you’re a student, going to school, coming back home, occasional trips out with your friends, if you’re a working adult, going to work, coming back home, and occasional trips with your friends. and you repeat this everyday till the day you die. what is the point? and when you try to pursue a different life, people say you’re being unrealistic and it’s never going to work out.
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You’ve taken the words straight out my mouth, I feel almost exactly the same. It gets tiring, all of it does. But I somehow hope that it can get better
Exactly, a warm and big smile can hide all your negative thoughts. People immediately think that everything is okay.
I kind of disagree with your second statement. Sure, today most people have a quite monotonous life, but this alone is not a reason to feel bad. You don’t have to be one of those people, there are many ways of making money, it is just harder to do it without a proper regular job. Even if you become one of those monotonous people, it is not a bad thing, you can still find good moments in life and things you enjoy. I envy those regular everyday guys who have just the regular problems. And if you are a student right now, don’t assume that your life will be something you won’t like, wait it out and see.
Your depression and negative feelings should have another reason than monotonous life. If you want you can tell us those and we can have a little chat here.
you’re right, there’s more reasons. a lot more actually. in fact, monotonous life is the smallest of the reasons. if i could leave a monotonous life, but with happiness, i would do it in a heartbeat, but i can’t. because of many other reasons as well. but i guess i’m starting with writing this, because i’m still trying to figure out how to phrase my other reasons in a way that really describes what i’m feeling inside.