its eally hard. try to fake smiles when im a school but i cant when i think bout suicide. at this point idk if i should kill myself or everyone around me.
Yeah, it’s hard as hell and I have to do it every day. It was frustrating the other day with a counselor I’m seeing at work (because they have her come in to see me now) and she kept pressuring me for answers on my plans for the future and I can’t just say sorry I don’t plan on there being a future! … sigh.
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I know and it’s not fun at all
It is hard as hell. I feel guilty putting on a smile for everyone. At work, at home, with friends, in public. It’s all fake.
its eally hard. try to fake smiles when im a school but i cant when i think bout suicide. at this point idk if i should kill myself or everyone around me.
A bit too well..
Well..yeah..it’s not a wedding
I haven’t smiled for years… I laugh, but it’s not happy, just sad and pathetic, like a mad man knowing his end is up.
Yeah, it’s hard as hell and I have to do it every day. It was frustrating the other day with a counselor I’m seeing at work (because they have her come in to see me now) and she kept pressuring me for answers on my plans for the future and I can’t just say sorry I don’t plan on there being a future! … sigh.
I told that (something similar anyhow)… you don’t plan for a future if you don’t see one.