I’m such a bad person

I hate everything and everyone. It’s as simple as that. I do have friends and a boyfriend and I should be thinking about how they would feel. I just don’t. I feel like it’s all temporary, none of them are here for the long run. I feel like I’m in this alone so what’s the point of waiting until I’m actually alone? They leave me out and I’m pretty sure my boyfriend will break up with me any day now. I’m so ready for either a new start or the end. Both sound great. I just can’t live here or deal with any of these people anymore, it’s too hard. I have hurt a lot already and I’m just a pain to everyone.