Why was I made to be the ugliest person on earth and to be tortured with knowing the love of my life who I can never be close to because I’m too ugly???
I don’t think there is any why. Things just are. We’re a product of chance. Some of us get dealt tougher hands than others (and some play decent hands poorly.) There are times when all you can do is accept the pain you feel, and carry it with you. Some hurts fade, some can be overcome, but some may always be part of you.
Ugliness fucking hurts. I’m going to be cliche but honest you are beautiful. I hate that if you’re not traditional looking you dont matter to society it hurts. But make no mistake you are truly beautiful. I understand im 28 and never had a gf so i know how much being ugly can effect you.
At least someone gets it. Being ugly hurts and ruins all your chances of anything in life. It’s not a hand you can play better if you know how to be an ugly female (or person assigned female at birth). And no “wise words” is am consolation for an entire life ruined and doomed to be lonr. I
It does hurt, and I wish I could offer some consolation. Maybe you are doomed to be alone, through the unfairness of birth. Or maybe not. All I can offer is that nothing that you’ve said indicates that you’re a bad person. From where I’m standing, that’s something, though it may feel hollow. Looks are important, but they’re really not everything. All beauty fades, and all that’s left is who you are.
I agree with you there-but what exactly makes you ugly? If you’re fat-that definitely can be fixed and is probably the easiest way to get pretty. I’ve seen very obese women get very fit and look stunning after.
If your face isn’t great-then makeup can help. Unless you’re disfigured beyond hope and you look like a normal person, then you can do things to make yourself look better.
I think for 99% of people out there it’s not hopeless…and I’m sure you can find someone who’d care about you as long as your expectations of this other person are reasonable.
The thought of suicide gives one such clarity. It’s a single decision that can eliminate so much chaos, uncertainty and misery in one’s life. But I guess knowing that you might find love with someone makes it worth living. It’s no panacea of course-you’ll have a different set of problems or boredom can set in, but it’s something I think most people crave.
I know what you mean about feeling ugly-I feel that way all the time, but that’s not how other people might see you. I was out with friends last night and a pretty girl was checking me out-even my friends noticed and tried to get me to talk to her…but the timing was off and I wasn’t feeling too great about myself…but it was encouraging to know I’m not as unattractive as I feel.
When you haven’t dated in a long time due to career/life problems, lack of decent opportunities, etc….you start to feel that you’re not desirable. But I look forward to getting more opportunities and start dating again. I really have to hit the gym though-but it’s difficult because I’m juggling a lot of things in my life-it’s always been that way for me. Hopefully I can get it sorted out.
No I truly am too ugly. I was born too ugly. Men don’t love or want fat girls, let alone fat tomboys, let alone fat transguys. I’m not human, I’m not a choice, only bodies matter in this world, not even faces so much. If you’re female or assigned female at birth, you have to stay under 100 pounds to try to find someone.
I’d differ with you there, black guys love fat girls. 🙂 If you’re an overweight trans-man….yes you’re right your opportunities become much more limited. Then you’d be looking for a gay man who wouldn’t mind that you were born with a vagina. Usually they’re after penis….so he’d have to be more open-minded than a hardcore gay guy.
I’m struggling with wanting to be a tgirl….but I’m bisexual. So what straight girl or guy wants another girl with a penis. That’s partly why I haven’t transitioned yet…TS people are not that accepted yet and there’s a lot of ignorance and bigotry against them-because people haven’t been educated yet. So I hear where you’re coming from.
If you were bi-sexual, you’d definitely have a chance with femmes, because they like dykes who look like me. I’ve been to a lesbian bar and trust me these butches were really ugly but picking up these beautiful pixie-like girls. I was very jelly. 🙁
A lot of men like transwomen, but yeah they don’t like transmen. I don’t think I could get a gay guy either. I know this sounds weird but it seems to be the truth. Gay guys are not into the things that I’m into. There are no gay guys who like any kind of real music. They listen to club music and pop. They don’t like rap, goth, metal, punk or anything else off the mainstream. They’re not into horror and sci-fi. I’d have nothing in common with a gay guy. There are transgender juggalos out there, both ftm and mtf, but no gay men that are juggalos either.
Ya you’re right and also you’re in a tight spot for sure. There is a fetish among straight men for transgirls…and I’m happy about that actually. Unfortunately not so for gay men (for transmen), at least that I’m aware of.
You could always find a straight guy and dress a bit more dyke…I’ve actually seen that before. But if you intend to fully transition into a man, then it’ll be difficult. Though you could get surgery to get a penis I’ve heard. I see the challenges you face though-it is a toughie.
I just read this whole thing. I guess it’s called a string. Doesn’t make me proud to be a human. Makes me wish I was born a …. cheetah…bear…dog…mosquito. Humans are such strange strange beings.
I know how it is, i’m ugly too, i was born in a poor country, i’m ulgy, i’m boring, nobody loves me, i cut myself and things just get worse each day for me, my advice, in this century you don’t need to be ugly, there are plenty of things out there that can make you ”beautiful”, but anyway, you may not be ugly as well, sometimes we find ourselves ugly but many other people out there think you are very beautiful…
What I find worse then that is being avg. looking and some how managing to fuck up every chance you get and when you get really close you do something really stupid. Which makes you believe you’ll never be happy cause you’re a fucked up person.
Ugly is truly a matter of opinion. And it’s time to start seeing the beauty inside yourself. Look in the mirror, affirm “I am beautiful! I am beautiful! I am beautiful!”, and start by appreciating your eyes, and how they radiate the light within you. (Then perhaps consider changing your user name, as the user name “Disgusting” is not telling the story you really want to be telling about yourself!!)
The love of your life is still out there… it is not someone who finds you ugly, but who sees your beauty (otherwise you have mistaken who the love of your life is). Though it will be hard for anyone else to find you beautiful if you do not first find the beauty within yourself.
I have known someone who I didn’t think at all good looking, he head been married at least 4 times. He didn’t have looks, but he had charisma… and that’s what made him attractive.
Start finding things to appreciate about yourself, and others will too.
Because men can ALWAYS find a woman. Transmen included. But I’m into men, not women. And I’m into men who share my interests. There doesn’t seem to be a gay man on the face of this earth who likes the music & movies I like. I’m not a prep, which is why, and I don’t like preps or preppy things.
And speaking of my eyes, it occured to me that I used to be even more hideous. I had a growth below one of my eyes for the longest time, 7-10 years I think, of my life where that was the defining thing above my holy hell fatness and ugliness that no one could get past, was being a troll with a growth on my eye. Then one day like a miracle it fell off. I have no idea why. But it occured to me earlier this morning, that I’m at least lucky I didn’t have to start over in a new city with that thing on my face. Surely I’d never have gotten anywhere or made a single friend if that thing was still hanging below my eye. But I’m still a hideous troll anyway. Up close, my eyelids are always greasy looking, my profile is beyond hideous, as small as my nose is, it hangs over. I realized this morning that I need a nose job. But I know, nose jobs fuck up badly 100% of the time so it’s not worth pursuing. I’m just hideous. I should be really embarrassed that I keep chasing & having such strong feelings for the most gorgeous man in the world when I’m the ugliest non-human troll in the world.
If i could as a straight man find a women i wouldn’t have been on this site or perpetually celibate the past rest of my life. Im not usually one to troll so i apologize and i mean not to take away from your unique situation its just not fair to assume anyone can find anyone some of us are too ugly and anxiety ridden to be anything more than in the friendzone to a train wreck. That said dating for anyone of any gender that is not “traditionally” attractive is a crap shoot no matter what. I do believe you can and i hope will find someone. I think given enough crap shots even my useless carcass could plausibly fluke into a gf. I do feel for you because i have been perpetually dateless and save for my past ldr i cant say that any girl liked me just tolerated me until they could find something better. People are cruel if they dont find you attractive. They act like your scum because you aren’t a fucking model even if they themselves arent perfect its horrible. Alright im done rambling. I hope i didn’t offend i just had an issue with the generalization. I do understand how you feel.
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I don’t think there is any why. Things just are. We’re a product of chance. Some of us get dealt tougher hands than others (and some play decent hands poorly.) There are times when all you can do is accept the pain you feel, and carry it with you. Some hurts fade, some can be overcome, but some may always be part of you.
wise words.
Ugliness fucking hurts. I’m going to be cliche but honest you are beautiful. I hate that if you’re not traditional looking you dont matter to society it hurts. But make no mistake you are truly beautiful. I understand im 28 and never had a gf so i know how much being ugly can effect you.
At least someone gets it. Being ugly hurts and ruins all your chances of anything in life. It’s not a hand you can play better if you know how to be an ugly female (or person assigned female at birth). And no “wise words” is am consolation for an entire life ruined and doomed to be lonr. I
It does hurt, and I wish I could offer some consolation. Maybe you are doomed to be alone, through the unfairness of birth. Or maybe not. All I can offer is that nothing that you’ve said indicates that you’re a bad person. From where I’m standing, that’s something, though it may feel hollow. Looks are important, but they’re really not everything. All beauty fades, and all that’s left is who you are.
I agree with you there-but what exactly makes you ugly? If you’re fat-that definitely can be fixed and is probably the easiest way to get pretty. I’ve seen very obese women get very fit and look stunning after.
If your face isn’t great-then makeup can help. Unless you’re disfigured beyond hope and you look like a normal person, then you can do things to make yourself look better.
I think for 99% of people out there it’s not hopeless…and I’m sure you can find someone who’d care about you as long as your expectations of this other person are reasonable.
*and if you look like…
*be alone.
I swear I hate this phone
The thought of suicide gives one such clarity. It’s a single decision that can eliminate so much chaos, uncertainty and misery in one’s life. But I guess knowing that you might find love with someone makes it worth living. It’s no panacea of course-you’ll have a different set of problems or boredom can set in, but it’s something I think most people crave.
I know what you mean about feeling ugly-I feel that way all the time, but that’s not how other people might see you. I was out with friends last night and a pretty girl was checking me out-even my friends noticed and tried to get me to talk to her…but the timing was off and I wasn’t feeling too great about myself…but it was encouraging to know I’m not as unattractive as I feel.
When you haven’t dated in a long time due to career/life problems, lack of decent opportunities, etc….you start to feel that you’re not desirable. But I look forward to getting more opportunities and start dating again. I really have to hit the gym though-but it’s difficult because I’m juggling a lot of things in my life-it’s always been that way for me. Hopefully I can get it sorted out.
No I truly am too ugly. I was born too ugly. Men don’t love or want fat girls, let alone fat tomboys, let alone fat transguys. I’m not human, I’m not a choice, only bodies matter in this world, not even faces so much. If you’re female or assigned female at birth, you have to stay under 100 pounds to try to find someone.
I’d differ with you there, black guys love fat girls. 🙂 If you’re an overweight trans-man….yes you’re right your opportunities become much more limited. Then you’d be looking for a gay man who wouldn’t mind that you were born with a vagina. Usually they’re after penis….so he’d have to be more open-minded than a hardcore gay guy.
I’m struggling with wanting to be a tgirl….but I’m bisexual. So what straight girl or guy wants another girl with a penis. That’s partly why I haven’t transitioned yet…TS people are not that accepted yet and there’s a lot of ignorance and bigotry against them-because people haven’t been educated yet. So I hear where you’re coming from.
If you were bi-sexual, you’d definitely have a chance with femmes, because they like dykes who look like me. I’ve been to a lesbian bar and trust me these butches were really ugly but picking up these beautiful pixie-like girls. I was very jelly. 🙁
Correction- they like dykes who look like MEN (not “me” lol)
A lot of men like transwomen, but yeah they don’t like transmen. I don’t think I could get a gay guy either. I know this sounds weird but it seems to be the truth. Gay guys are not into the things that I’m into. There are no gay guys who like any kind of real music. They listen to club music and pop. They don’t like rap, goth, metal, punk or anything else off the mainstream. They’re not into horror and sci-fi. I’d have nothing in common with a gay guy. There are transgender juggalos out there, both ftm and mtf, but no gay men that are juggalos either.
Ya you’re right and also you’re in a tight spot for sure. There is a fetish among straight men for transgirls…and I’m happy about that actually. Unfortunately not so for gay men (for transmen), at least that I’m aware of.
You could always find a straight guy and dress a bit more dyke…I’ve actually seen that before. But if you intend to fully transition into a man, then it’ll be difficult. Though you could get surgery to get a penis I’ve heard. I see the challenges you face though-it is a toughie.
I just read this whole thing. I guess it’s called a string. Doesn’t make me proud to be a human. Makes me wish I was born a …. cheetah…bear…dog…mosquito. Humans are such strange strange beings.
I know how it is, i’m ugly too, i was born in a poor country, i’m ulgy, i’m boring, nobody loves me, i cut myself and things just get worse each day for me, my advice, in this century you don’t need to be ugly, there are plenty of things out there that can make you ”beautiful”, but anyway, you may not be ugly as well, sometimes we find ourselves ugly but many other people out there think you are very beautiful…
What I find worse then that is being avg. looking and some how managing to fuck up every chance you get and when you get really close you do something really stupid. Which makes you believe you’ll never be happy cause you’re a fucked up person.
My Darling:
Ugly is truly a matter of opinion. And it’s time to start seeing the beauty inside yourself. Look in the mirror, affirm “I am beautiful! I am beautiful! I am beautiful!”, and start by appreciating your eyes, and how they radiate the light within you. (Then perhaps consider changing your user name, as the user name “Disgusting” is not telling the story you really want to be telling about yourself!!)
The love of your life is still out there… it is not someone who finds you ugly, but who sees your beauty (otherwise you have mistaken who the love of your life is). Though it will be hard for anyone else to find you beautiful if you do not first find the beauty within yourself.
I have known someone who I didn’t think at all good looking, he head been married at least 4 times. He didn’t have looks, but he had charisma… and that’s what made him attractive.
Start finding things to appreciate about yourself, and others will too.
I love you!
Because men can ALWAYS find a woman. Transmen included. But I’m into men, not women. And I’m into men who share my interests. There doesn’t seem to be a gay man on the face of this earth who likes the music & movies I like. I’m not a prep, which is why, and I don’t like preps or preppy things.
And speaking of my eyes, it occured to me that I used to be even more hideous. I had a growth below one of my eyes for the longest time, 7-10 years I think, of my life where that was the defining thing above my holy hell fatness and ugliness that no one could get past, was being a troll with a growth on my eye. Then one day like a miracle it fell off. I have no idea why. But it occured to me earlier this morning, that I’m at least lucky I didn’t have to start over in a new city with that thing on my face. Surely I’d never have gotten anywhere or made a single friend if that thing was still hanging below my eye. But I’m still a hideous troll anyway. Up close, my eyelids are always greasy looking, my profile is beyond hideous, as small as my nose is, it hangs over. I realized this morning that I need a nose job. But I know, nose jobs fuck up badly 100% of the time so it’s not worth pursuing. I’m just hideous. I should be really embarrassed that I keep chasing & having such strong feelings for the most gorgeous man in the world when I’m the ugliest non-human troll in the world.
If i could as a straight man find a women i wouldn’t have been on this site or perpetually celibate the past rest of my life. Im not usually one to troll so i apologize and i mean not to take away from your unique situation its just not fair to assume anyone can find anyone some of us are too ugly and anxiety ridden to be anything more than in the friendzone to a train wreck. That said dating for anyone of any gender that is not “traditionally” attractive is a crap shoot no matter what. I do believe you can and i hope will find someone. I think given enough crap shots even my useless carcass could plausibly fluke into a gf. I do feel for you because i have been perpetually dateless and save for my past ldr i cant say that any girl liked me just tolerated me until they could find something better. People are cruel if they dont find you attractive. They act like your scum because you aren’t a fucking model even if they themselves arent perfect its horrible. Alright im done rambling. I hope i didn’t offend i just had an issue with the generalization. I do understand how you feel.