well, another day and somehow i am still here, Seen this girl who came into my work place today, and for 3 years that i have known her she claimed to not be able to walk or anything. She WALKED into the shop. why does she get to walk when i can barely? It’s not fair. This is another reason I don’t want to live
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I’m happy that you are writting. How are you feeling today?
even worse, God won’t answer my prayer for healing, He won’t answer anything, everyday i just suffer, my friends don’t want to hear how bad i feel, it makes them ‘uncomfortable’. I only have you guys, no-one else
I am praying as well. That sounds horribly isolating regarding your friends. That feeling when the people you would count on to supportive are not helping..
i tried talking my friend last night and thats what he said, everyday im more determined to end all. The world is getting worse, why would i want to live in a world that is almost at WWW3. I can’t bring a child into it. I have nothing left to live fot
god?what a bad joke….ppl are dying all over the world…innocent ppl…and us..the doomed?cursed with survival instinct and fear of death…i mean …come on?what s the point of all suffering..? 0.
I really don’t know how to answer, I know it’s not God’s doing
you don t have to reply…i admire your faith… i really do.i used to thank god for my life till things got completely fucked and all i have now is depression and desire for death…if only i had a clue what s after…i d no longer be here,that s for sure…
i have a strong faith, but still desire death a lot, i think anything is better than this. I suffer alone now, my friends don’t want to hear how i feel, nor do they truly believe i can manage it
i get that…no one wants depression around and it makes sense…ppl are generally selfish and one who hasn t experienced depression cannot understand it..so all is fucked, 21st century and we haven t figured out the brain…it s too complex i guess..and we wonder why suicide happens so often…give me a goddamn break.
i hear you, depression is pushed under the carpet, and that is why their is suicide, our problems are not being addressed properly
that too….u believe in reincarnation?
i believe we go to heaven
wtf is heaven supposed to be?
being with God, in heaven, there is no pain or suffering. pure peace. No sin, this is God’s promise.
but still…fear keeps u on earth…correct?
in a way yes, suicide is seen as a sin, thats what keeps me here, if things continue the way they are, then i will do it regardless and suffer the consequence of my action
imo…suffering should be a sin….
i understand why you feel this way. It is cruel and unfair
fuck all things!i m sick of it.should just go through with it and i m a fucking ***** to do so….
being unable to kill yourself doesn’t make you a *****, it makes you human, it is not an easy decision and is quite scary
scariest shit ever….has to be done.no point in suffering.
have you seeked help before? death is not easy. my main fear is failing and being worse off
yup …tried some…pointless…
haven t we talked before…any chance u r from india?
no, im from the UK
a lot of ppl from the uk.u have the magic “cure”?
unfortunately not, we have no cure
i posted a while ago that suicide is the cure;)
completely sarcastic
Good morning princess.
morning
I don’t know much about you, but I assume you a wheelchair-bound?
i can walk a little and can stand up. I have very limited movements in my arms
I hope I’m not being intrusive, but what happened?
i was born the way i am, known no different.. my condition is Arthrogryposis. Information is on the web, please feel free to research it, its very rare
Your life is not worth any less than anyone else just because of this condition. I’m not just saying this just because I feel sorry for you or anything like that. You have the chance to offer the world a one-of-a-kind perspective.
i get judged so easily and people can’t see my abilities, i have been bullied and picked on. Been seen as worthless. I have had enough
I’m very sorry to hear that. I can’t even imagine what you’ve been through. I’m willing to read your story. I think everyone has a voice that deserves to be heard and I try not to judge them.
please feel free to read my posts. I don’t plan to be here long, im figuring out how to die peacefully and alone without being caught
Are you sure that is what you really want? It seems to me that your breakup is what ultimately led you to feeling this way. Am I mistaken?
the breakup hasn’t helped, the other issues are the main reasons, but the breakup certainly contributed
Are you sure you really want to end your life? I mean it seems to me that you don’t and just want to end the pain you find to be unbearable.
im torn, i can’t see things will improve, yes i understand i will ‘get over’ the breakup. but, im still disabled
Please reconsider. From what I’ve read of your posts you really don’t seem to want to die. You do enjoy life. Consider this breakup an opportunity. You can find strength within yourself to become mentally stronger. With patience, you will definitely find someone else and be in a much better relationship. You said you have faith after all.
if im coming from a selfish point of view, yes i do desire to die, sooo badly. It is my friends/family i worry about more than myssellf
Well if that’s the case it is your life and it’s just as selfish for them to want you to keep living as it is for you to ultimately kill yourself. I’m not going to offer you words of encouragement, but just consider this through and through. Once it’s done you’ll really be dead for good.
i am still close to my ex and he said he still needed me and if i killed myself, he would too.
It sounds like he’s just using you for emotional support, though I’m not jumping to any conclusions.
i don’t understand him. he has suffered severe mental health problems for years (since before we met) and he feels im the only one who supports him, so your probably right
If he feels that way then why did he break up with you?
because im a highly insecure person, it got too much for him to cope with, so, he decided to be friends. But doesn’t want me out of his life
The way to deal with that situation is tell him you need time to yourself and that you can’t just be friends. Disappear for a couple weeks or even a month. In this time period he may change his mind and agree to get back together with you; or, if not, it will give you the space you need to start getting over the break up. Remaining in contact only adds “fuel to the fire.” You’re letting him use you by saying, “My feelings don’t matter,” and you’re just hurting yourself by staying in a volatile environment like that.
your totally right, its hard as we lean on each other in a way. its hard without him