Real, we are strangers, anonymous people, but we are as real as you are.
Are you taking any medication? Are you plane of emotions? Sometimes after so much pain we get that sensation, but that is what is not real. We still have feeling, we just dumb the pain in order to survive.
Sometimes is better to forget, forget even that we are still alive, this can help.
I wish you can come back and post again, and say that another bad night past by and that you are better. We all have those dark days. You are not alone.
i take an amphetamine and an antidepressant every day. my insurance company only just now approved that antipsychotic, geodon, for me. but i cant find a reason to bother. i see no purpose for me here. i just dont know why i dont. i used to have so much impetus for every little thing i did. today wasn’t even that bad of a day. all of the human inside of me just evaporated out of nowhere.
i really hope youre right, about these feeling being the not-real thing. but even if you are right, i hope it doesnt last. if it does im just done. i am so beyond exhausted.
i am so sleepy. after feeling a lot of nothing it is so welcome. im going to see if this is one of those crises I can sleep off. if i can, it is probably not worth killing me over. but if it sticks around then ill plan from there. goodnight sp.
I hope that you managed to get some sleep and feel a bit better. Maybe life is a beta version game. The game code is bad if the game character starts to realise it is a game. Then I (the character) pray to the game maker to either fix me or delete me. Maybe the geodon is the fix that the game maker sent. Every time I get close to levelling up I have to fight a big boss. What sucks with this game is that I don’t know what level I am or how close to finishing it I am. If I manage to kill off my character with some kind of hack maybe I will have to start all over again.
Please don’t think to hard about my ideas. I have no clue. I do remember a guru in the sect I was in talking about solipsism once and something to do with Plato’s allegory of a cave. It made me think about video games like what would Pokemon Red have been like if we just went ”Well my mum has left town and all I have is a map. I might as well die.”
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Real, we are strangers, anonymous people, but we are as real as you are.
Are you taking any medication? Are you plane of emotions? Sometimes after so much pain we get that sensation, but that is what is not real. We still have feeling, we just dumb the pain in order to survive.
Sometimes is better to forget, forget even that we are still alive, this can help.
I wish you can come back and post again, and say that another bad night past by and that you are better. We all have those dark days. You are not alone.
i take an amphetamine and an antidepressant every day. my insurance company only just now approved that antipsychotic, geodon, for me. but i cant find a reason to bother. i see no purpose for me here. i just dont know why i dont. i used to have so much impetus for every little thing i did. today wasn’t even that bad of a day. all of the human inside of me just evaporated out of nowhere.
i really hope youre right, about these feeling being the not-real thing. but even if you are right, i hope it doesnt last. if it does im just done. i am so beyond exhausted.
I’m glad you dropped the solipsism. It was getting in the way of mine. I now command you to be happy and fulfilled!
thank you, hopefully you are the solus mens so your command comes true for me.
i am so sleepy. after feeling a lot of nothing it is so welcome. im going to see if this is one of those crises I can sleep off. if i can, it is probably not worth killing me over. but if it sticks around then ill plan from there. goodnight sp.
Good night whiskered, we see you tomorrow.
Put some soft music on, Sleep of Max Ritcher is a good album.
Thank you, rainyday.
I hope that you managed to get some sleep and feel a bit better. Maybe life is a beta version game. The game code is bad if the game character starts to realise it is a game. Then I (the character) pray to the game maker to either fix me or delete me. Maybe the geodon is the fix that the game maker sent. Every time I get close to levelling up I have to fight a big boss. What sucks with this game is that I don’t know what level I am or how close to finishing it I am. If I manage to kill off my character with some kind of hack maybe I will have to start all over again.
I didn’t completely understand your metaphor, but it isn’t your fault. I will keep thinking about it until I do. Thanks for caring about me.
Please don’t think to hard about my ideas. I have no clue. I do remember a guru in the sect I was in talking about solipsism once and something to do with Plato’s allegory of a cave. It made me think about video games like what would Pokemon Red have been like if we just went ”Well my mum has left town and all I have is a map. I might as well die.”