Have you tried Burning Angel? It’s a bit darker stuff.
Anyway, to the issue at hand, fuck appearance. Health is more important. And not giving too much of a f***. Your impulse of getting rid of mirrors sounds sensible. Skip the cutting maybe. I lived for years with no mirror. You develop other skills for grooming, and it’s liberating not to be focused on your appearance.
I have a dirty mind. Yesterday when I handed an elderly lady her receipt, she remarked on how long it was, and I so wanted to shout “THAT’S WHAT SHE SAID HAHAHAHAHA”, but I couldn’t 🙁
I’m fat, pocked with obscene acne, and thanks to a hormonal imbalance, I am disgustingly hairy and mannish. I have the bitchiest Resting ***** Face of anyone I know, whacked-out proportions, bad hair, and bad teeth.
I’d show pictures, but I don’t want to break my phone’s screen.
You know what Whisker? I have some filthy areas of my soul. dark stuff. It is all in the sell though. You can view it as wrong or you can view it as part of what makes you uniquely human.
The impossible dark areas I use for very specific purposes and many nights this part of me is what keeps me sane and alive. I like to look at it this way, I can only shine as bright as contrasted to the darkness within me.
Does butchering yourself with a knife make you feel better? If it does, what is the harm as long as you keep the tools clean and make sure the cuts are kept clean and dry.
Oh and make sure you have a tetanus shot. I say this all the time, to many who cut. If it makes you feel better who are others to judge? Not a popular stance I know.
Okay. Glad you don’t have urges to do that any longer. It sounds really painful. I can imagine why you would want to do that. Or maybe your ears so as not to hear D. I don’t have any answers except possibly an exorcist. I don’t think Episcopalian priests do that, only Catholic priests, and it is a long and arduous process to get one approved.
You can always work out to get the physical shape you want. You can see a dermatologist for the acne. The hair you can shave. I also suffer from bitchiest resting ***** face, this forced me smirk / laugh a little when people talk to me so I don’t seem like I want to harvest their organs. You can always get a weave (though I’d not recommend it), and sometimes if you call up a dental school / college they have programs where you can get work done for free, only thing is that they use you to teach a class so it would take longer than usual. And for your phone, the iphone 6 uses ion-strengthened glass so it wont break or crack when us insecure people take selfies.
Thank you very much for your advice, Dungeon. It is good advice. Unfortunately, I am a worst-case scenario.
I’ve tried working out and dieting. My bad bones make exercise excruciating, and my impatience makes it futile regardless. And I’ve done physical therapy before, in case you might be wondering. It worked, but after they discharged me, I didn’t keep up the routines. So now I’m back to where I started. And I already have a buttload of doctors and a litter of siblings with their own doctors and needs, so there’s no way my legal guardians are going to let me see a dermatologist. They don’t have the time or the means. Besides the fact that my skin is allergic to pretty much everything. Including acne treatments.
I do shave the hair. That works for everything but the forest of hair on my arms and the gross fucking unibrow I’ve had ever since I was seven.
And my bad teeth are mostly a result of an accident made by a druggie dentist assistant who removed a fuckload of my enamel while she was half asleep and operating on me. Enamel doesn’t grow back. And the absence of it makes every little thing hurt like all heck. The rest of the badness comes from similarly permanent stains on my teeth, the result of having had braces.
Wow what a ***** for fucking up on the job, I see why you’re so upset. I’d be breaking shit too. Only little thing I can tell you if you hadn’t tried is waxing your unibrow / arms, they grow back much, much slower and for some it might start decreasing hair growth in those areas all together.
Yeah. I wanted to strangle that woman. She was so cruel about it too. Didn’t take a bit of responsibility for it, either. Not even when her tools would periodically start to wander onto my FACE. Ugh. I was beyond pissed.
I already wax my eyebrows. But I’ll keep that in mind.
I am sorry to hear what u r going through whiskered-fish,I remmember going through this phase once,I even tried to cut myself deep,but then I realized that its a part of me,I was very depressed too,things were so bad that I broke every mirror I could find in the house,I stopped socializing and this has been going on till now.Alright,this is what is going to happen,you show me your picture and point me everything bad or ugly about you and for every bad or ugly feature you point out I will show you 2 beautiful things about you.I will show it you whiskered-fish that u are beautiful in a lot of ways,TRUST ME!!!!
@Hazy: You nailed it. That’s exactly why, actually. I wanted to stop seeing him so badly that I was willing to completely Matthew 5:29 my eyes to make it happen. But then I remembered that I see him when my eyes are closed as well, and if I were to blind myself, I’d just be leaving myself alone with him for the rest of my life.
The realization scared the hell out of me, to say the least. I hate my life.
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This so sounds like a porno.
I think you’ve been spending too much time with your right hand, muspelhem.
I don’t watch pornos, but if more of them had blood and guts, I probably would.
I know I should work on my backhand, but it’s such a chore.
Have you tried Burning Angel? It’s a bit darker stuff.
Anyway, to the issue at hand, fuck appearance. Health is more important. And not giving too much of a f***. Your impulse of getting rid of mirrors sounds sensible. Skip the cutting maybe. I lived for years with no mirror. You develop other skills for grooming, and it’s liberating not to be focused on your appearance.
Invest in some masturbatory aid. Like a fleshlight. Or a robot hand.
What if you’re ugly and unhealthy? Because excess weight and bad health go hand-in-hand.
Fleshlights are so fucking sad.
Then you are doomed to only having relationships with foodstuff. Which is still better than a fleshlight.
I knew it.
O_O
I have issues.
I’m just surprised from muspelhem’s comment.
Wth dude!
Ah. Well yeah, now that I think about it…wth kinda pornos are you watching, man?
I have a dirty mind. Yesterday when I handed an elderly lady her receipt, she remarked on how long it was, and I so wanted to shout “THAT’S WHAT SHE SAID HAHAHAHAHA”, but I couldn’t 🙁
O_O
Maybe he only read the title
Maybe.
I read the whole thing, but yeah, my comment was about the title.
I’m cautiously considering cutting pieces of me off.
Sometimes, you have to take matters into your own hands.
I feel the same way tbh. I often feel like a monster and it’s torture 🙁
I’m very sorry, hiohneh.
This whole living thing is absolute bullshit.
This entire thread cracked me the fuck up.
I’m glad it was able to do some good, then.
Why do you think your appearance is hideous?
Maybe because it is hideous.
I’m fat, pocked with obscene acne, and thanks to a hormonal imbalance, I am disgustingly hairy and mannish. I have the bitchiest Resting ***** Face of anyone I know, whacked-out proportions, bad hair, and bad teeth.
I’d show pictures, but I don’t want to break my phone’s screen.
Also, forgot to mention that I’m hunched over, too, because of skoliosis.
You know when I think of your soul, you are beautiful.
Hazy, that kind of remark means the world to me. I mean it. So thank you. Very much.
I hope you never get to see the entirety of my soul, though, because it’s ugly, too. And I’m sorry that it is.
You know what Whisker? I have some filthy areas of my soul. dark stuff. It is all in the sell though. You can view it as wrong or you can view it as part of what makes you uniquely human.
The impossible dark areas I use for very specific purposes and many nights this part of me is what keeps me sane and alive. I like to look at it this way, I can only shine as bright as contrasted to the darkness within me.
Just talking about it makes me want to messily butcher myself with a knife.
I fucking swear I will.
I hope you dont
Does butchering yourself with a knife make you feel better? If it does, what is the harm as long as you keep the tools clean and make sure the cuts are kept clean and dry.
Oh and make sure you have a tetanus shot. I say this all the time, to many who cut. If it makes you feel better who are others to judge? Not a popular stance I know.
I don’t cut. Only choke, sometimes.
When I say butcher myself, I have something more fatal in mind. Unless I’m talking taking my eyes out, but I haven’t had such urges in a while.
Okay. Glad you don’t have urges to do that any longer. It sounds really painful. I can imagine why you would want to do that. Or maybe your ears so as not to hear D. I don’t have any answers except possibly an exorcist. I don’t think Episcopalian priests do that, only Catholic priests, and it is a long and arduous process to get one approved.
You can always work out to get the physical shape you want. You can see a dermatologist for the acne. The hair you can shave. I also suffer from bitchiest resting ***** face, this forced me smirk / laugh a little when people talk to me so I don’t seem like I want to harvest their organs. You can always get a weave (though I’d not recommend it), and sometimes if you call up a dental school / college they have programs where you can get work done for free, only thing is that they use you to teach a class so it would take longer than usual. And for your phone, the iphone 6 uses ion-strengthened glass so it wont break or crack when us insecure people take selfies.
Thank you very much for your advice, Dungeon. It is good advice. Unfortunately, I am a worst-case scenario.
I’ve tried working out and dieting. My bad bones make exercise excruciating, and my impatience makes it futile regardless. And I’ve done physical therapy before, in case you might be wondering. It worked, but after they discharged me, I didn’t keep up the routines. So now I’m back to where I started. And I already have a buttload of doctors and a litter of siblings with their own doctors and needs, so there’s no way my legal guardians are going to let me see a dermatologist. They don’t have the time or the means. Besides the fact that my skin is allergic to pretty much everything. Including acne treatments.
I do shave the hair. That works for everything but the forest of hair on my arms and the gross fucking unibrow I’ve had ever since I was seven.
And my bad teeth are mostly a result of an accident made by a druggie dentist assistant who removed a fuckload of my enamel while she was half asleep and operating on me. Enamel doesn’t grow back. And the absence of it makes every little thing hurt like all heck. The rest of the badness comes from similarly permanent stains on my teeth, the result of having had braces.
Wow what a ***** for fucking up on the job, I see why you’re so upset. I’d be breaking shit too. Only little thing I can tell you if you hadn’t tried is waxing your unibrow / arms, they grow back much, much slower and for some it might start decreasing hair growth in those areas all together.
Yeah. I wanted to strangle that woman. She was so cruel about it too. Didn’t take a bit of responsibility for it, either. Not even when her tools would periodically start to wander onto my FACE. Ugh. I was beyond pissed.
I already wax my eyebrows. But I’ll keep that in mind.
I am sorry to hear what u r going through whiskered-fish,I remmember going through this phase once,I even tried to cut myself deep,but then I realized that its a part of me,I was very depressed too,things were so bad that I broke every mirror I could find in the house,I stopped socializing and this has been going on till now.Alright,this is what is going to happen,you show me your picture and point me everything bad or ugly about you and for every bad or ugly feature you point out I will show you 2 beautiful things about you.I will show it you whiskered-fish that u are beautiful in a lot of ways,TRUST ME!!!!
@Hazy: You nailed it. That’s exactly why, actually. I wanted to stop seeing him so badly that I was willing to completely Matthew 5:29 my eyes to make it happen. But then I remembered that I see him when my eyes are closed as well, and if I were to blind myself, I’d just be leaving myself alone with him for the rest of my life.
The realization scared the hell out of me, to say the least. I hate my life.
God loves you though. Ironic isn’t it?
Yeah. He does. And it is.
Sometimes I forget about that stuff.
maybe you are a modern Lott.
I don’t understand what you mean by that.
Meaning maybe your suffering is temporary and good things await you. This is a test.