Every day I have to tell myself that today is the day that I’m going to turn it all around. I say that I’m going to win all the battles of my day, I’m going to make all the right decisions instead of panicking in every other moment and getting trapped in a shell of anxiety and worthlessness.
The situation would be bearable if I was making progress or winning. But I’m losing. Life is kicking my ass and I just want to call quits. I’ve been trying for long enough. If I was meant to make it and be normal I wouldn’t be in this rut.
Every night I pray to God to help me, to wake up a different person. It’s impossible but I try to fool myself.
Maybe tomorrow…
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I can totally identify with this post, every comma, every period, every space, every word. 🙁
But reading it just makes me want to shout, I am getting tired of crying my heart out. And I am trying… I am…
blank-clutter,
Maybe your asking for to much? we are all in the same boat, i myself like instant gratification, i think once we feel this way it is like Fighting an unbeatable battle, just trying to keep it in check is almost like winning. but not so rewarding.