To see if Nidda will reply to the email i sent the day she attempted. Ive been checking for days. Twix isn’t going to post again. Nidda isnt going to email or post again. I feel so empty. Not only that some girl at work was killed by her boyfriend and then he killed himself. I didn’t know her but its still sad. I’ve been shoveling food down my mouth. I haven’t worked out much this week either. I dont want to rehash the habit of empty emotional eating. I’ve lost a lot of weight and dont want to undo it but continue. All i can do is eat though. I feel alone pointless and like suicide would be a better option im living for more lonliness and i shouldn’t be here. I don’t want to live any more.
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I emailed her too. I’m hoping she is in the hospital.
Hey DMliving:
Binging is an anxiety reflex. Depression on the opposite takes appetite away (I am not saying everyone functions the same way, I am just talking from what I know and what I am going to say in this post is not an imposition but an advice, if someone thinks differently, please know, I am trying to help, no harm intended)
This means it is important for you to know how to differntiate them both. Something may be causing you to worry about the future: work? Family? Death? All?
I deal with anxiety binging and there is a way to treat it: eating as a discipline. It means you are going to stop dieting and you are going to start eating the things your body needs to eat, that’s a good breakfast folowed by the other four meals. (If you do it in modaration it will help you loose weight).
The idea is to eat one thing of every ripe of food at the morning: one (if you are lacose tolerant) dairy, one protein, one fruit, and one carbohydrate. at mid morning….
Well there is a while description of the day meals I don’t know if you care.
The idea is to make your body believe it’s got no restrictions so it won’t reveal against your mind impositions. But, of course you have to take care of cuantities and qualities of the food you eat. If you think about it, it ends up being cheaper that eating fistfulls of junk food.
But the core here is to know what is causing you anxiety. I know you are also feeling hopeless and depressed, but the problem stayed in this post is one big issue too.
Going out for a wall is important.
Don’t push yoirself for sometime on dieting or anything related to food restrictions…
Idk
You have been doing great by the way 🙂
Sorry about Nidda, let’s hope to know about her.
Sorry about Twix…
I eat for both anxiety and depression. Sometimes it does calm my nerves. Sometimes i feel so depressed i need a “pick me up”. I do best when i focus on adding in good things not subtracting bad. I’m just so depressed because I feel guilty i kept trying to talk nidda out of it. I know i shouldn’t feel guilty and it isn’t my fault intellectually but emotionally i feel responsible in some way. My own life is pretty depressing as well. Thanks though i appreciate the support.
Don’t take on that burden. NiDDA I think would be the first to agree that this is her decision as sad as that is. She knows you care but ultimately she is responsible for the path she takes, not you. Your hand is out in friendship but sometimes the person chooses to walk a path with out you. We need to respect that regardless of our own personal feelings. I’m not saying if she left us it isn’t a fucking Greek tragety. What I’m saying is that hers is not your journey.
Dude, go get those numbers! And don’t give up on.your job — keep improving — you’ll get better.