Legacy

I don’t want to build a spaceship that travels at the speed of light or create replacement organs. I don’t want to figure out a clean abundant power source or a better way to grow produce either. I don’t want to do any of that nor do I want to participate in this stupid Capitalist system. I really don’t want to explain how socialism is not the same thing as communism and why a socialist president would benefit a semi-Capitalist America.

I don’t even care about the fact I was a guinea pig for now-commonly-used prenatal devices in Cali or the fact I helped preserve my great-grandfather’s of WW2 newspaper clippings; in a way my family’s history. Am I evil for not giving a damn about any of that? Shouldn’t I be proud I helped pioneer prenatal/newborn technology or saved Japanese-American history from being left to rot??? Than why do I feel so empty inside… That in the end, my unintentional accomplishments are meaningless and vain.

I don’t want to be a part of this species I have no respect for. I don’t want to participate in this “Game of Life” and “Monopoly” combination when I don’t even want to play. I wish I could just leave… To leave this world centered around battles of egos, black-and-white dualism and tragedy of the commons. I just want to disappear. If to act on that desire is a sin than I will gladly sin time and time again until I’m free.