Things have changed ever so slightly. As I feel myself pulling back from all the friends that have supported me throughout high school, and losing touch even more with my true best friend, who lives long distance, things are getting better. I met a girl this year who has really changed me for the better, and is a true friend I can rely on and makes me happy for once and allows me to have fun. I just dont ever think I can get to that deep emotional level where I can share about my depression and anxiety with her. Its hard, and eats away at me deep down because I know this friendship isn’t gonna go anywhere, and all I can feel is me losing everyone else around me. On the surface, Im happy im smiling im having a good time, but the masks are real easy when your stuck in one spot and know that your friendships will never go anywhere. I guess things are better, at least on the surface.
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Where it will go I don’t know?
But I think having a good person in your life is pretty much good than having no one. And specially when that person is your friend.
So, I would say if you are feeling good right now. Then forgot about the future. Just enjoy the moment. 🙂
Well, you don’t have to dump it on her all at once. You can test the waters, start off with some general allusions to it at a point in time when both of you have energy to spare. Besides, you only have to share stuff like that if you feel like it’s important. But of course it’s great to open up like that and let people get under your armor,
I am happy that things are getting better for you. Maybe there really is a hope after all. Just as muspelhem said, ease her into it, don’t dump it all on her at once.