I’ve been sleeping through the past few weeks since the new semester began. Last semester i slept through the last 2 months of term and i scraped through my exams, but since then i just dont have the energy or the discipline to work. And it’s kind of funny because what happens to those of us who don’t want to work? Do we just go homeless and starve on the streets? If it comes to that, i’ll make a point of dying on my own, out of the way, in the wilderness somewhere.
Every time i feel this complete and utter lack of hope, a level of hopelessness so deep and complete that it fills up my veins, I come on here and attempt to put it into words and, ironically, hope that somebody knows the magic string of sentences that will put me back together again.
I’m at a point where I cant quite decide if i want to work in an insane asylum for the rest of my life, or live in one. Neither option is available to me, but when i’m asleep i can dream.
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When a person loses hope and wants to sleep all the time its usually a sign of deep depression. Its not uncommon. A lot of people go through it. Have you tried to see a doctor about this situation? Like get on some meds or something for it? I don’t believe that pills are the complete answer for everything but some medications can help people get through what they are currently dealing with enough to help people get back on their feet and get productive again. If you can see a psychiatrist about this I suggest you give it a try because from what you say this seems to be an ongoing issue for you and its interfering with your ability to move forward in life. If you currently enrolled in school I really think you ought to make an effort to get through the schooling and get your diploma or degree or whatever your working toward. If the depression is getting in the way then again. Try to see a doctor about it. There are lots of meds out there and if they find the right one that works for you it could subside these hopeless feelings enough for you to get back to your schooling and ultimately get better and move forward.
I wish you well with everything. Keep posting and checking back there are lots of helpful people here and somebody might have the right advice for you.
It’s all about wanting to hear your own voice…… But who’s in control?
It’s the one talking most… Me or the Doctor….
Thanks for your concern guys, and for your time also. It means… something. I feel guilty for taking your time and energy, I don’t know what I’m reaching for when I post on here really.