A friend of mine committed suicide a couple months ago. To be honest, I knew the signs. When I heard about it, I can’t say that I was all that surprised. We weren’t close, but it really affected those around me. My best friend couldn’t keep back from sobbing in the middle of class, and it just got me thinking if she would be acting the same if it were me? I’ve already attempted several times (though I never had a gun to make it super easy) and failed. If I had succeeded would all these people act the same?
I find it ironic that all these people who didn’t even know him were saying how “tragic” this was, and how they “miss him so much”. They didn’t even know him until now. I don’t think I could take that fakeness from beyond the grave. People made fun of him too.
I just found it interesting how people reacted to this situation. Now nobody dares mutter his name. Life just continues as per usual as if he never even exsisted at all.
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Iv thought that to but I also come to the conclusion everyone will miss u for a couple months then life will carry on then just become a memory
I used to have a complex about whether people would remember me or not when I’m gone. Death does have a lasting effect on people. I lost a childhood friend in a car accident over a decade ago, and I still think of her often. Nobody needs crocodile tears, but trust me, the ones who really do care about you (whether you think they do or not) will not forget you. Life goes on, and they have no choice but to move on, but they will never forget.
I’ve noticed that too.
After someone dies like this, the remaining people (even strangers) suddenly seem to CARE a lot more than they cared when the person was still alive.
If they’d put that much heart into it when the person was still alive and suffering, everyone involved might still be alive.
I’ve also wondered the same thing about whether people would miss ME as badly as they seem to miss other people. I’ll never get to find out, since I won’t get to see whatever their reaction ends up being.
I’m sorry you lost your friend.
The world is such a hard place to be sometimes.