I’m jobless again. Idk how to feel about that. I have a shit ton of projects that can make me more profitable than another job or the scam that modern school can be. Take out thousands in student loans so you to can maybe make 45000 a year and be a higher class of broke than you are. I’ll pass. Im going to look for jobs mind you. Im just going to focus on the things i want to do as well. I’m actually more obsessed with my weight. I’ve been obese my entire life and i “only” have another 40 to 50 lbs left to lose. I’m so tired of being fat (now chubby but still fat) i have a billion horrible associations with my weight and about 3 weeks until my family moves. (This will be my 3rd move in a year almost like being a kid again lol) i can’t lose all of it in that time but I can lose a lot of it. I can’t help but to think about how many opportunities I’ve missed out on because of my mind and body. I don’t want that to continue anymore. The reflection of my life and what it has been sickens me sometimes. There is a part of me though that believes success will happen and had my life not been so uniquely awful i would have just accepted a worse mediocrity than I’ll ultimately have. Only time will tell.
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Haven’t seen that movie yet (Batman v Superman), but I do want to. Three moves in a year? Wow. That’s gotta be tough. Stay positive deadman and make it happen, bro.
Yeah it was more common as a kid I’ll have a llc and some dbas in a few months and a better job than i had if i can just stand up straight lol.
The movie is better than the reviews but still flawed. That said the more i reflect on it the more i want to see it again. There are “better” movies thar don’t engage you as much as this one does. It has one of the greatest soundtracks I’ve ever heard. It also seems as if corporate may have dicked around with the movie it could have been.
Yeah I just now heard on triple J a review of it and it didnt sound too promising however I think I’d deff still see it
Losing weight is so hard. You should be so proud of yourself for how far you’ve come. I know moving is stressful but it sounds like overall you are moving in the right direction. You also sound like you have a good head on your shoulders. You’re right about student loans and debt. I’m in debt up to my eyeballs and it’s a huge weight around my neck. People I know who never went to college are doing so much better financially than I am. Anyway, good luck with the move, the job search and losing weight. I’m rooting for you.
I’m in the process of moving too, fresh off of losing the one, I at least for now, feel was THE one. Packing up and moving one awful box after another remembering everything we had and could have been. It hurts and it’s hard, but it’s moving forward. It’s so hard, but one box at a time, one pound at a time. We’re all here for you and rooting for you.
Im sorry to hear that good luck to you. @dying what is your degree in?