I know. Once I do it my family’s going to be left to deal with it and I don’t know if I can do that to them. But I also know I can’t do this anymore, I just feel pushed right now. I’m trying to think clearly but I’ve been over this so many times.
I understand the desperation, even in the face of having to pass all that grief on to your family. It’s torture. I just wanted to let you know that I don’t think that you’re selfish.
I’ve always wanted to die on some level, even when I was like 5 years old. Just kept waiting to see if anything would ever make me happy or make life bearable. Technically I’m a nurse, but I haven’t been able to get a single job interview, for a long time now. Now I may lose my current job and my home. I always wanted to die, but now I feel I’m being forced to decide right now because i don’t know how I’m going to live. Before I felt like I could do it on my own time.
Fitz, I don’t know what to say. I know I didn’t want to hear anything when I was convinced it was time. Keep your head up. Keep pushing. Fight for as long as you can. It’s dark now, but just hold on okay? I’m here for you, I believe we all are. Talk to me if you need to get everything out.
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U ok over there fitz
Really really not. I read that your attempt didn’t work out. I hope you’re doing ok. God I hope mine does though.
Yeah mine did suck try hang in there I’m here if u want to talk if ur going to do it anyways plan it
Think this through. Once it’s done, it’s permanent.
Are you willing to talk about what’s put you in this dark place, fitz?
I know. Once I do it my family’s going to be left to deal with it and I don’t know if I can do that to them. But I also know I can’t do this anymore, I just feel pushed right now. I’m trying to think clearly but I’ve been over this so many times.
I understand the desperation, even in the face of having to pass all that grief on to your family. It’s torture. I just wanted to let you know that I don’t think that you’re selfish.
What’s got you to this point today?
I’ve always wanted to die on some level, even when I was like 5 years old. Just kept waiting to see if anything would ever make me happy or make life bearable. Technically I’m a nurse, but I haven’t been able to get a single job interview, for a long time now. Now I may lose my current job and my home. I always wanted to die, but now I feel I’m being forced to decide right now because i don’t know how I’m going to live. Before I felt like I could do it on my own time.
I’m here if you need someone to talk to. What’s going on?
Fitz, I don’t know what to say. I know I didn’t want to hear anything when I was convinced it was time. Keep your head up. Keep pushing. Fight for as long as you can. It’s dark now, but just hold on okay? I’m here for you, I believe we all are. Talk to me if you need to get everything out.