I do wonder were il be in the next 5 to 10 years or what il be doing and then on the other hand I wonder if il make it that far shit my life has fell apart and still not to sure why I’m hanging around for ? Isit that question WHAT IF ? Yeah maybe or do we just fear the unknown what good can come from emotional pain apart from self harming and suffering and heart break ? I look at my scars and think why didnt I push more deeper and just bleed out months ago or swollow a bunch of shit and hope for that never ending deep sleep it sound so sweet dosnt it no more struggling no more pain or suffering when was the last time I was actually happy seems like a fucking life time ago I think if I lived in the US I think I would of gone into a corn field and put a bullet in my head by now iv been in the dark so long I’m getting comfortable here I totally forgot what it’s like not having the dark cloud over my fucking head
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Well as far as wondering where you might be in 5 to 10 years. That completely depends upon you.
I truly believe our lives are founded upon the choices we make. So You have to decide where you want to be in 5-10 years and then make plans and inch your way toward getting there. Your the captain of your life. I hope you choose to do something cool with your life. Its all about making choices and taking action. I believe you can survive and get better and accomplish something awesome with your life.
Thanks phantom I don’t no how much fight I got in me to continue but I’m still here for now
I feel ya