GeneralProtected: So Perfect. by whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 written by whiskered-fish 3/30/2016This content is password protected. To view it please enter your password below:Password: AgonyCystsI love itit's so amazingit's so humblingmasochismpainPcosPolycystic ovary syndromepunishmentSelf Loathingself-hate 16 comments 0EmailRelated postsDecisions decisions…….. 4/7/2020Secrets 4/6/2020academics ruin me 4/6/2020I’m back… Yet again 4/6/2020ordinary 4/6/2020Big Yellow Attic 4/6/2020Where is everyone 4/6/2020The Spiral 4/5/2020Lets meet again in the future 4/5/2020its my time… 4/5/202016 comments October_rain 3/30/2016 - 6:33 pmIt’s gotta beautiful in VA right now at this time of the year, not too hot… Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 6:40 pmHaha. Actually, yeah. It is really nice where I am, not hot. Slight breeze. Good day for a walk. Which, incidentally, could exacerbate my condition. Hmm…:-) Log in to Reply HERE4UOK 3/30/2016 - 6:51 pmHey there Whiskered-Fish –I must tell you, I LOVE the way you write. Your style is clear, concise, factual, and entertaining. Even if unlike you, I HATE pain, thinking about as I read your words made me smile. Thank you. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 8:45 pmOh wow, thanks. I’m blushing now.I like it when I meet people whom I’ve never spoken to before who tell me that I brought them some kind of happiness or humor. It makes me feel like I matter. So thank you.I love my satellites. <3 Log in to Reply Cordless 3/30/2016 - 6:57 pmOMG.I know exactly what you mean because I’ve been diagnosed with PCOS. I was diagnosed with it about 15 years ago. I know all about the burning knife-stabs in the gut, and the unpredictability of it all.I don’t enjoy the pain like you do, but I know how much it hurts.I’m not glad you have it, but I’m glad that there’s someone here who understands what it’s like. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 8:56 pmYikes, I am so sorry. It really is the worst. Before my self hate fermented into masochism, the pain used to get so bad that I’d genuinely consider giving myself a hysterectomy. Which would’ve been quite painful in itself, but probably more than worth it in the long term.I remember once where I tried to explain the condition to this girl in my work crew, and she said: “Uhh…isn’t that everybody, though?” I just stared at her with my mouth agape, dumbfounded. No, no that isn’t everybody. Haha. Maybe I just explained it badly. Or maybe that girl had PCOS herself and just assumed everybody else did. Log in to Reply rocketman 3/30/2016 - 7:24 pmwhiskered-fish, AWWWWWW! Thanks for sharing that!!!I’m joking you know me 🙂 seriously few things come to mind.1.) i’m pissed off that you have this ovarian cysts!!!! me i could understand having it, that is if i were a woman, i probably deserve it! but you! my little whiskered-fish! i’m truly mad at the world right now!!! 🙁2.) thanks for telling me i guess? 🙁 ha ha joking again! really it does help me understand why others are so depressed at times!!3.) how old are you sweetie? i forgot? go ahead and tell me your 19 or something so i can really get upset!!!4.) Can’t they remove that thing? really i’m not that knowledgeable tell me they can!5.) i er ah? i forgot 5?6.) again i’m pissed!!!7.) Dammit!!!8.) i’m sorry!9.) i hope you get better somehow?5.) i guess i could research it but you know all the answers.10.) You know i’m not a sexist but god dammit! seems like girls have worse luck then men? i hard to be a girl!11.) you know i have a lot of things wrong with me, i’m 59!! i’m going to the doctor for all kinds of things! although i’m look and act sexy! i’m getting old!!! i decided well if i’m not going to kill myself well then i’m going to the doctors! and get reconditioned! i’ve been doing this for a few months now, let me tell you in my eyes it’s hopeless!! impossible! But guess what! it’s working! i’m coming along! i see the progress! i’m getting more positive everyday! What’s the point i’m making? if a old fart like me can hang in there so can you!12.) I LIKE THE PAIN WHEN THERE WORKING ON ME I SAY GO AHEAD YEAH MAKE IT HURT! BECAUSE YOUR MAKING ME BETTER! So i’m a sick puppy like you! 🙂 yes i’m drinking vodka again! not to helpful, but all my thoughts are positive for you! Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 10:12 pmAww, I’m sorry rocketman. Didn’t mean to upset you, or anyone. Though I guess it’s bound to happen when I post about uncomfortable subjects like this one. As for your question, I’ll be eighteen in about four months. It’s kind weird being reminded of how young I am on here, because then I feel like I need to start pulling out the “yes Ma’am”s and the “thank you, Sir”s and all those other humble little formalities that’ve been burned into my head since I could speak. I feel like that would really stilt conversation, so I hope everyone can just forget that I’m so little. Ha ha.Technically, ovarian cysts can be surgically removed. However, most of them tend to be follicular, which means that they’ll just return later, sometimes worse. There are other forms of treatment, but, as far as I can tell, the only garunteed fix is getting fixed. Heh. Ba-dum-tiss!Yeah, girls do have it bad in a lot of respects, but guys have their own problems too. I suspect that we both have it roughly equal in terms of hardship, we just have different kinds of hardships.Thanks for the hopeful peptalk, rocketman. I’m really glad to hear that you’re making progress, that’s awesome. I don’t know what I would do without your humor here; I hope you’ll be with us for a long time. Well, by “us” I mean among the living. Not necessarily SP, ha ha. Log in to Reply rocketman 3/30/2016 - 10:52 pmwhiskered-fish, Thank you so much! although you are 18 and i’m a few years older!! OK OK! Stop laughing! a lot older i never think about it when i talk with my friends here we are equal in my eyes. please never call me SIR, JUST ROCKET OR TIGER!!! EEERRROOOWWW!!!! 🙂 Don’t worry about getting it removed just do it! you will be fine, i know these things! i have ESPN!! 🙂 Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/31/2016 - 2:15 amHaha, you’re very welcome. Yeah, I like to think of us all as equal in age as well (that is, my age, almost eighteen). Some of us eighteen-year-olds just have jobs, kids, and retirement plans. 🙂 Log in to Reply muspelhem 3/30/2016 - 8:13 pmI guess that was a masterclass in making lemonade…whiskered, what do you do to get so smart? Inject dictionaries? Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 11:00 pmHaha. Perhaps.Thanks for the compliment, muspelhem, though it probably has more to do with my genetics than with my own hard work. 🙂 My dad is some kind of certified genius or something. I don’t know by whom, (not MENSA, or anything, haha) but he’s got some sort of certification of his unique intelligence. I’m not as brilliant as he is, but I am still his kid, so I’m pretty smart. Which is definitely a good thing, because I’m not strong, pretty, hard working, socially adept, or anything else that could be considered a likable or useful trait, so I have to compensate for that somehow. Most of the time, though, I just come off as being unbearably pretentious. Log in to Reply Hazy Day Sunflower 3/30/2016 - 9:13 pmIs this where I say “congratulations for cysts”?LOL.You crack me the hell up Whiskered. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 11:03 pmWell, I will admit, that is a rare sentence. 🙂And I’m glad! Making people laugh kinda makes not-killing-myself worth it. Log in to Reply 4beyondhelp 3/30/2016 - 9:46 pmFirstly, I would say I’m sorry about your cysts, but that’s not really appropriate here, so suffice to say I’m sorry they inconvenience you at times. I thought I’d let you know that your post also brings me happiness. It’s really rare for me to read the words of someone else who gets what it’s like to still feel pain and fear it to some degree but who also overcomes instinct it to savor pain that feels very well-deserved. And you do word everything really well too. Anyway it cheers me to know that as weird as I am, there’s someone out there like me. Log in to Reply whiskered-fish 3/30/2016 - 11:16 pmThanks. They hurt like absolute Hell right now, and I have to do the dishes in short bursts as a result. I’m loving it for the most part, although, I’ll be honest: I can’t say that regret hasn’t crossed my mind once or twice. But I’m determined to resist the siren song of prescription pain killers. Curse you, millions of years of evolutionary conditioning!Man, I love that last sentence of yours. “Anyway it cheers me to know that as weird as I am, there’s someone out there like me.” There’s nothing quite like that “not alone” feeling. I’m really overjoyed to have given it to you. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribeAllReplies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.