So, I’ve kinda figured out how to get some drugs online using Tor (I think…lol). Think I’ll go away sometime next month. Maybe go to California, go to some amusement parks and then poof. I’m out of this shit hole
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I guess it’s good you found what you’re looking for. if there’s anything you want to talk about feel free
I don’t blame u for wanting to check out so do I man it sucks here
Not sp I mean life
Thanks guys. Actually, I have a question. In your opinion, would it be better to just act like I’m mad and leave for cali, or should I just go without telling anyone? I don’t know which would make my family less upset. Also not sure if I should get rid of my ID so no one ever knows.
So which would be less painful in your opinion: someone just disappearing and never knowing what happened, or knowing that they died.
I mean, the first one you could just act like you want to live on your own or something like that. They’d be hurt that you’re gone, but they’d think you’re still kicking.
If they think you’re just “missing”, they may search for years, desperate because they just “don’t know”.
This would take resources away from helping find people who honestly are still alive and missing.
If they realize from the beginning that you are dead and not simply missing, then they will grieve (even if you don’t think they would), but that will help them to come to terms with the harsh truth of it all. They’ll be able to achieve a sense of closure a lot sooner.
Either way would be difficult for those left behind for completely different reasons. Just keeping it real.
hope it goes well . If i were you i’d just do it without waiting any longer , i’m so eager to go that if you would give me a gun right now i would blow my brains in less than one second . But i don’t need to tell you this , you know too how it is to live in this shit fucking fucked up hole called ” life “
Be really careful about thor. You don’t want to risk using stuff that isn’t what you’ve bought. I’m saying this because when dealing with thor sellers you could either: get nothing at all, get something that looks like what you ordered yet it is something completely different, and the least likely: get what you ordered… so yup, make sure that you get is what you bought. Been on all three cases so… yeah.
If i were your family i’d prefer to know. Otherwise i’d be trying to find you for an indefinite period of time, and that’d be pretty difficult and heartbreaking, but… well, you do know your family better. Whatever you end up doing, i do wish you good luck.
Yeah dude leave a note at least they would know
better for them to know you passed. they will need to grieve that, however they choose to. it would be cruel for them to have to hold out hope for your return for years, or imagine you kidnapped in someone’s locked basement.
maddie_kay,
i wrote this 3 years ago, my plan to check out.
1.) For starters I’m going to a terrific casino from Friday to Sunday and get the best room they have.
2.) I’ll make reservations at the best restaurant and spend about $300.00 just for dinner.
3.) I’ll take about $7000.00 cash just for gambling.
4.) I’ll stay up the whole time playing and if get attracted to a nice girl I’llll treat her real good all night long!
5.) And after I’ve had a real blast and it’s the wee hours of the morning I’ll say goodbye and go to my room.
6.) I’ll wipe my forehead and say wooooo glad that’s over with I’m tired and it’s time for the helium hood.
7.) I’ll make sure I leave a note on the door for the maid and leave a big tip on the bed.
8.) I don’t have a planned date for this adventure but I can do it when I’m ready.
9.) I don’t want to go out bitter.
10.) oh yeah i’ll leave a tip up my ass for the under taker won’t he be surprised.
I think personally faking you’re alive would be worse because they’ll live the rest of their lives possibly looking for you or constantly wondering why and what if. Suicide would be more of an instant kick to their stomachs which would knock the wind out of them and make them grieve for awhile but in the end would bring some kind of closure. They’ll probably still wonder why you did it unless you leave them some kind of note or mail it to them or something?! Idk.
Really I’m in the same boat figuring out how I’m going to end it without hurting my ‘rents and everyone who ever gave some kinda shit about me so I’m kinda grasping at straws. I think the truth is always better when it comes to a death; just look at what an unsolved murdercase like OJ Simpson’s does 2 people, it turns them into lunatics!
Yeah that’s true. I guess it would hurt them either way. Thanks for you opinions guys. I guess I’ll decide when the time comes. I’m more leaning towards the leaving a note thing though.
Also, I’ve been going on a few reddit subs, where the sub moderators themselves and users review vendors, so it should be a little less risky.