I lost my house today
I lost a friend
I had a smoke
and now I have a empty heart ,mind ,body &soul
I fear the feeling of nothingness and I’m now lying here with the nothingness that I’m afraid to stay awake but yet more terrified to sleep as I’m not wanting to wake . I fear the dissapointment ,the heartache, the miss leading throughts . I fear myself and well being.
I fear being me …
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I understand you. It’s like, I don’t want to kill myself, but rather wish I simply didn’t exist.
Hey man, lets face it, our heads are like a bad neighbourhood. U shouldn’t go in by urself when its dark.
I hate that feeling of been scared to sleep cos its sometimes the only peace I can get. Are u the same. I know this is a bit strange but I listen to asmr videos on YouTube. Might be worth a try to get ur brain turned down a bit.
That comment stroke a nerve in me. It’s like you described me.
Do u have a fav asmr channel? I love springbok asmr and gentle whispers atm… hope thats what u were talking bout. If not I look like a dick. (Typical self conscious me). Damn brain. See, bad ‘hood.
Hi! Thank you for your transparentcy!
Im sorry to hear of your loses. I hope somehow things get better for you.
This sounds like song lyrics. Thank you for sharing.